Hi everyone,
Just wanted to let you know about my last few weeks. I could feel myself dropping as over the last 2 months I'd been playing superwoman taking on everyone else's plus my own families problems.
I saw my new psych who is great on the Wednesday and by the weekend I knew I was in trouble I had dropped to a dangerous level in just a few days. Being the weekend the only option I thought at the time was the public system not something I wanted plus I work in the industry and didn't want to run into anyone I knew. By Sunday I was making plans no more needed to be said but I increased my anti D up to what I knew was the next level. My psych didn't work till Tuesday and we missed each others call so I'd booked in to see her that Thursday, I saw her at the hospital I had spent months at years ago but she thought it might be good for me to come in for some time out. Even though there was no beds they rang me the next morning and pushed me in as an emergency for my own safety though my meds were starting to kick in luckily.
I spent 2 weeks in my own room, just watching how my meds worked and I didn't have to go to classes just relax and have time out and think about what I needed to do. I did try class twice but it triggered me so badly i decided not to go back. The staff let my follow my own routine and I did lots of craft and photography.
I also sorted out my problems. One was finding another private hospital that takes out of hours admissions and just in case my psych gave me a script for a nice calming drug to keep me out of the public system if I couldn't get into the private hospital.
Two, the social worker arranged to get some help with our ill kids to help with their behaviour and we've also decided to start marriage counselling.
Three- I got a new permanent job which will help me.
Four- No more superwoman, I've already had to bite my tongue quite a few times but it's for my health.
So I just wanted to put a positive spin on going to hospital, if you catch yourself early enough the experience is so different to when you're really unwell so please, look out for yourselves and don't be scared of taking that time out in hospital if you need it.