I am afraid that...

I am afraid that i'll be sick the rest of my life.
I am afraid that i'll be on these pills forever.
I am afraid the pills won't fix a thing.
I am afraid I enjoy being sick.
I am afraid of being alone.
I am afraid that I find suicide a comforting idea.
I am afraid that I'm slowly destroying my life.
I am afraid I'm going to end up homeless.
I am afraid I'll always be this way.
I am afraid of so many things....

Hi, kryth! I hope talking here will help you. I am afraid of many things too and I'm sure people will be able to relate to what you said. Maybe you need to give the pills time to work. Posting here means that you want things to change and they will. You will work for it.

I understand what you're going through. I am afraid of all those things myself at the moment (well I can't connect with the pills because I can't afford to even get to a doctor at the moment)

I'm going through problems of my own at the moment right now, so I don't know if I can really help you at all, but sometimes it helps just knowing that other people are going through the same or similar problems.

So look at the bright side, you're not alone.

I hope you the best in getting through what troubles you.