not sure. advice help...

okay so i guess everyone has problems.
you could say im a bit of a perfectionist. i always have to be right i always have to be the best. if im not, i just break down and its come to the point where im making myself sick over it. i already take medications ( for other things caused by stress we think) and recently my dose has been raised. on top of it i now have some illness (i dont wanna say what.. thats a whole other issue) and it's starting to look like something that might be persistent and this scares me. i am slowly just getting to the point where i cant take it anymore.im starting to get really depressed and i dont want to fall back into the same habits and things i was doing before. i just dont know what to do. i really dont have anyone i can talk to about anything going on so i tend to bottle it all up inside. to someone reading this it may be nothing , but you dont know the half of it. i just need someone to talk to. someone to at least pretend like they care.


awkWurd. *

ask your doc to recommend someone

hey, u r not alone.....there are many many people out there who are struggling so dont feel weird or different. u really need to share your feelings with someone, anyone. whether it be a therapist, friend, neighbor, relative it doesnt matter but u cannot keep it hidden inside of u. the more u shine a light on your problems and expose them then the easier it is to address them. dont be ashamed or embarassed, i used to be but now i will tell anyone about my depression and so on. you would be surprised by how many people even respond by sharing similar emotions or issues. so try and tell your story to anyone u can without worrying what they will think. even write it all out in a notebook. i am going through a lot of stuff myself but the more i think about it, its all just a dance in my own head. a bunch of irrational thoughts and beliefs creating inaccurate feelings and emotions. u can start by telling us your story, post whatever you want here and people can chime in with there advice or thoughts.