So depressed and alone. I hate myself

I have bipolar disorder and anorexia.i am losing everyone this week.i have very few friends.one friend let me down or did in my mind at least.i may be exaggerating it inside my head.my other friend just entered a relationship with a person who immediately disliked me for no reason.i went from talking to them nearly all day long to only once or twice a day.i feel hurt and betrayed the they've been dating for only a couple weeks n our friendship has taken a backseat to this brand new relationship.my relationship isn't going well.im in love with the first friend that I mentioned in this post.my partner was mean to me today and I just broke down crying.my partner will ask me what's wrong n then offer no help or tell me to just get over it.no support.i have literally nobody to talk to about anything.theres so many secrets in my life and letting them out to anyone would have a very negative consequence.im holding it all in n drowning within my own thoughts.tried therapy and meds so many times and it made me worse.more than anything I just need a friend. ;(

Hi CindyButterfield, this forum is the right place to share whatever you want to get out of your chest.
i am listening!!

I'm also very lonely. But I'll be your friend I know it is not the same as physically having someone there to hug you and support you but it may help having a pen-pal. PM me if you want to chat - there will be a bit of a delay with the time difference but I would like to hear from you.

Good Luck and stay strong!

You need to look outside this lonely/not lonely, have friends/don't have them mentality. There is not much you can do if you put those constraints on your train of thought.

It's hard to tell what your situation is without asking much more questions about the specifics of your life (i.e. what do you do? how old are you? what was the nature of your conversation/friendship with these "friends").

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Cheers,
RG