Story of Me .. A girl who's depressed...

I feel lonely .. so i start typing this..at least this is something i can do meanwhile .....

My life was "oh so perfect" beside the random LEGAL beating and yelling when i was young ..... until I immigrated to Canada.. things start going downhill

I was spoil rotten by my grandpa who took care of me, i didnt have to do chores.... and all of a sudden, i have to cook my own meal, take care of my little sis when i was 10 ....the beating got servere... i ran away ... for the first time of my life...... when i was only 12

Things got worst when i got 16..we finally move into a house of our own..... worst thing. ever.......... I switch skool and there was NO one that actually understands me.. i hide away all my emotion .... until that one November where my grandpa died.... i broke down..completely .....

He was the man of my life... because my dad is a sissy who just stay home and doesnt help the family out... instead he just eats all the groceries he doesnt buy and feed horrible stuff ..like GREECY stuff to the dogs..anyways ....... parents never really got along..so i ran away again ... had no choice but to come back home..... so i wanted to end all this...... suicide came to mind........ i OD on anti-depressens and pain killers...as if that did anything.. NO ... so i kept trying ..... tried to drink laundry soap, cut and bleed myself to death, hang myself... ..blah blah blah i wish i have a gun

Im 22 soon .. im still going thru this...... im tired! im really tired ... no drug really works, phychagist's words are such #######4....... my mom care less anymore....... she just doesnt understands, she just grab my hair and bang my head today....whatever...... I need out......

Hey,


I am sorry about the delayed response.


The net effect of your childhood is that you have matured quicker than most other people. You had to mature due to all of the hardships your immediate family 'bestowed' upon you. It is certainly unfortunate that these things happened. I was hit when I was younger too but I feel that it wasn't as bad as what you suffered.


What are your current living arrangements? What are you currently doing in your life? I'm sorry but I only have questions for you my dear.


*superhug*
Kevster