Depersonalization due to puberty?

Hello, I'm here wondering if my depersonalization is due to puberty. The first time I experienced depersonalization was after being under the influence of a tablet called risperdal. This experience didn't go away until months later, when I told my doctors about this they soon sent me to a mental hospital in 2011 to put me back under the influence of risperdal. They increased my dose and the depersonalization came back and was much worse, this time it can with headaches that felt like my brain was being squeezed, I felt like I was trapped behind a cage from society, my emotions were flat and I couldn't socialize. Now as of 2012 (I was taken off of it around September last year) the depersonalization hasn't gone away - neither has the other side effects -, it feels like my brain has literally been damaged and my eyes feel like their about to explode. My father says my depersonalization is caused by my lack of sleep and hormones (I'm 15 years old and turning 16 next year), but I reckon that awful s**t they put me on caused it. I can't even think clearly anymore, my attention span is f*cked for good, I am now emotionally flat & do not express emotions properly anymore and I have EXTREME anger in me. I figured that this would go away like the last time but it hasn't, people on the internet say that I should "calm down" and it'll go away but due to this medication I'm always zombied out. Remember that I haven't been on it since September last year -- but I STILL feel the side effects! I have been diagnosed with high-functioning autism and I suffer from anxiety (yes, I know that depersonalization can be caused by this but I've had it since I was about 5 and I NEVER got any depersonalization symptoms then and only happened when I got under the influence of risperdal). If this depersonalization is caused by puberty then I want to know when puberty will stop! If this is depersonalization is a trigger from the risperdal then I want to know how to get rid of this awful thing QUICKLY!

Is anyone going to even answer me?

Why am I getting ignored?

Wow, 59 views and no ones replied. Wow, so much gratitude to you people... I mean really!

-- Fri Sep 21, 2012 2:57 am --

Wow, 59 views and no ones replied. Wow, so much gratitude to you people... I mean really!

Wow, you people really are cruel. I didn't realize it at first, but after months of watching reviews of your forums I came to realize, you never help anyone but make their symptoms worse!

I have this experience to but not during my puberty age, perhaps that was occurred when I was 20's. The headache I have, almost breaking me apart, this situations also took me years to get rid off it. I realized that thinking the pain that attacking your brain could develop another pain. Meaning, when you always thinking of it, the pain will not go away. Till, it happen that I try to feel calm down during the pain, just thinking any of the positive sides despite I have this. I always do that process, calming my self down.. brings me good one. Now been a years again, the headache that came to attack me before is no longer hitting me now.

This forum isn't very busy, so responses won't come quick, if at all.

Anyways, i'll first say i'm no doctor or anything like that, of course. But i did a bit of browsing around the web and it seems depersonalization has been connected with risperdal in some people. I'd imagine the drug could be the main/sole cause, especially since it seems to be an outstanding factor, and even more so since you mentioned it's caused depersonalization in you before. The best thing to do would be to speak with your doctor (or psychiatrist/etc. someone who knows about prescription drugs and psychology) and mention that you are still experiencing effects that seem to be the side effects of the risperdal. I can't say anything for that drug itself, but in general i have heard of certain prescription drugs having lasting effects in certain ways, even once you stop taking them for a while. No one will be able to sort something out like that except a professional, especially since it's dealing with an exact science like medication.

Good luck in your search.