I may Have a Cure

jasmin wrote:Hi, monster12348! Are you sure it was Depersonalization Disorder, were you diagnosed? Thank you for taking the time to share your experience. How are you doing?

Here I am, 8 months later, remembering that at one time I posted this but after a few days felt like no one was reading it. However, at this point in time I guess I've realized a few things. I feel better, my personality is coming back, I'm finally feeling like I can be myself, like I have my own essence, something that I lost when I developed DPD. A part of me is still away somewhere, hard to describe, its away, I don't know where it is, and I want to be completely in reality like I was before, maybe one day I'll get there, with my reality provoking exercises that seem to help a little bit day by day, but all in all, if reality is controlled by your brain, and isn't something completely steady, then who is to say what is real and what is not?

Hey! You're feeling better? That's great, I'm happy for you. I went through a depressed/depersonalized state too, for about a year, and things slowly came back to me.

Hey, I have this Depersonalization disorder I just wondered what and how much exercise you do because this seems the only cheap way to help me get rid of this, everywhere else suggests that you must buy an expensive program which I don't want to do. Thanks

well when i look out of my left eye i did kind of notice a difference on how it life did kind of seem more real. But ya this did happen to me from smoking weed too, or just from it. But mine happend 3 weeks after i did it. it just randomly happend when i was in school. im a teen btw. if you find any cure or anything that helps please tell me beacause i hate this. thank you

Hello, I am a normal teenage kid, or at least I was, but recently I have been suffering with something call Depersonalization disorder. This disorder is a living nightmare literally; I have felt like I have been in a dream for about 4 mouths straight. For the people who have never had this disorder it is so bad that I wouldn’t wish it upon my worst enemy. To explain is impossible but I can use lovely metaphors to kind of give what I am going though. Imagine that you are in a dream that you can’t wake up for no matter how hard you try and everything that passes though you mind is all about “what is happening to me “or “why me?” I’m trying to make a stand here by writing this. I been looking up cures and ways to deal with this disorder, but it is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with. I need help I just started to see a therapist, but I want to know if any of you can help me. I come from a very dysfunctional family and I used to smoke weed and I did some molly (ecstasy) at concerts I’m told that might have something to do with it. If you have read this and have any ways I should deal with this I will greatly appreciate it.

Hi guys,

I've been through depersonalisation and derealisation and I was able to cure it. I completely agree and empathise with you guys and Johnny21, your description is spot on. It was the scariest thing I have ever been through, I felt like I was going crazy and that life wouldn't be worth living in this manner. I went to several doctors, psychologists, etc and was just told it was stress and I needed to relax. I didn't agree with them at all, because at the time, I was very relaxed, life was going really well and I was so happy when it began. I tried everything.. massages, meditative trances, sensory deprivation tanks even! However, I figured out that this had only started when I began to drink coffee excessively (I had only begun drinking it when I was travelling around, and formed a bit of a habit, so I continued after my travels). It wasn't an immediate effect, but built up slowly and got worse with the more caffeine I consumed. I immediately stopped drinking coffee, and found it reduced a bit but not totally. I ended up seeing a naturopath and after explaining my situation she gave me a homeopathic remedy. In homeopathy they believe that "like cures like", so to cure a problem you need to use what caused it in the first place, so this remedy was actually made from coffee. Anyways, I took the coffee remedy around once a week over several months. Every time I took the remedy, my symptoms reduced within half an hour, and after a few months of regular use it's barely here at all and I can function again!
I would really recommend you try every avenue like this and look into alternate medicine too. I know what people say about that stuff, but no "real" doctor knew how to help me, but a naturopath did.

I am a teenage kid, and I suffered self diagnosed depersonalization for a few years. It never got to an extreme point, most likely because it was a result of my neglect as a child and social services took me away when I was 7. Marijuana use made it worse at times, but sometimes it either had no effect at all or it would even make it better by numbing the constant thoughts I was having. Never had any serious derealization besides uncontrollable thoughts and images in my mind seeming to manifest itself and not allow me to focus on anything, but I think everyone has that at times. For the most part I think my depersonalization was philosophically tied, and the view I had of the world contributed to it a lot. I wanted complete objectivity, to reject any subjective meaning to things, and to see the world without an individual stance. It was relativism to its strongest degree possible, and pursued it as some kind of 'enlightenment', rather than self-annihilation. Once I realized the destructive path I was going down though, it took years to go back to normal. I studied psychology, metaphysics, and what the idea of faith meant besides its religious connotation to develop at least some kind of holistic thinking style. You don't need faith in any deity or greater force. You need faith in the existence of yourself and reality. Some theories that helped be visualize this a lot better was the bio-concentric theory, dual hemi-spheres, and anthropic principle. Introspection is a good thing to have to help you get over it, because it really lets you self-analyze and rewire your thought process and cut off the destructive trains of thoughts when they begin. I look at a lot of these stories of more extreme cases, and I couldn't even begin to imagine how programmed this must be for them because they seem to not have the ability to control their perception with mental impression, will, or reason. All I can say is good luck, because the key to your sanity really lies within you, you just need to find what is making you tick. A band that has really great songs about how depersonalization is like is Eyedea and Abilities, and they really brought me a lot of comfort when I was confused. Try listening to "The Dive" both part one and two, and see if you can relate.

I noticed something similar with the eyes, though I'm not sure it's the same.

My right eye sees everything through a kind of spiral lens, where I get tunnel vision for specific things. My left eye sees everything as stable.

I view the world predominantly through my right eye and kind of block out the left, inadvertently. I wonder if that's significant in finding a cure. Will look into it more.

I really liked this post. I'm not a diagnosed case of depersonalization disorder, I just recently told my symptoms to my therapist and he believes what I'm experiencing is very close to what I've been read ing up on this illness. Looking back it's hard to remember the first time I've felt this feeling, but i think it occured for the first time in maybe september of 2011. I described my experience as being in a "box". A glass enclosure that follows me around constantly, waiting for it's moment to envelop me whole. When the "box" does this, that's when I experience the most intense symptoms. It's as if you've become a humanized robot, going through the motions you normally would but just with a dulled effect. Even as I type this, it feels as if my fingers are not touching the keyboard, as if im not really thinking this, but more of an observer of this situation. At first my therapist looked at me as if I'd grown another head but as I described my feelings he began to understand. I've also found that excercising helps, or really just doing any activity that has a positive outcome. For example, I paint and when i've finished a painting I've accomplished something, and that sense of accomplishment is solid proof of something I can see that confirms that I do in fact, exist. My therapist believes what I'm experiencing is a dissociation coping method to deal with the amount of stress I've had in my past, which is a significant amount. My question that people may be able to answer is: I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety last year around middle of April, since then I've been put on 150mg of Zoloft per day. This creates a dulled effect with my emotions. I don't experience dispair anymore, but rarely do I ever experience a "happy" feeling, or much emotion at all. I'm not sad by any means, but I'm not necessarily happy either. Would anyone think that the Zoloft may be contributing to this feeling? Any answers are extremely helpful, and I'm continuing to see my therapist as well as starting with a nautralopath tomorrow to see what other options there is.

I've been trying to tell therapist that my eyes are not in sync for years! I am almost in unbelief that I have found this post. I've searched this topic many times to find others with the same issue, but never have until now. I've tried to tell my eye doctor and he looked at me like I'm crazy. I see things predominantly from my right eye and my left eye feels like it drifts off into nowhere. This heightens my dissociation. My husband noticed that my left eye actually doesn't move with my right sometimes, so he believes me now.

Anyways my official diagnoses is complex PTSD-although I'm pretty sure it's depersonalization or a dissociation disorder.

Have any of you received help?