Hello, Any Input Greatly Appreciated

Well I know I'm not diagnosed with depersonalization disorder that's pretty obvius and i've avoided bringing this up and other thing's about my self like I'm positive I deal with some form of ocd and I really dont wallow in that fact but the reason I'm posting a thread in this forum is i've alway's been in this mode problebly 90/95% of the time were it's like i'm in my head watching my self do act's and just totaly dissconnected it's very depressing and scary, i've read that depersonalization (& or) dissociation can go along with either panic disorder or schizoaffective disorder may be both not too sure. I'm just wanting any input about what i'm dealing with & if you can relate or anything about the disorder's you might point out to me, thank you in advance and I will try to check this thread frequently to reply any quetion's/comment's.

Hey, Jason, I have felt disconnected too from my life or even my own actions, like I wasn't even here and everything was some kind of ilusion, and I know it's scary. Did you tell your doctor?

I know I said "I would check frequiently" so i'm sorry about the late reply, havent told my docter because I don't have one Jasmin and yeah it is scary it's like wakeing up and things are so un-real, one time I woke up and it was so bad I started thinking "i'm not even real why don't I just kill myself" it was so strange and the other day my mom woke me up and it was like the most serius question in a real life video game and I was in a delima, i'm not expressing this the best I could it's kinda rushed on the basic's of what happen's to me Jasmin but thank you for replying.

Why don't you have a doctor? Could you tell your regular doctor, then? This isn't going to last for ever, you know. I'm sure you will find a way to feel better. You can come here and let things off your chest any time and I will listen.

I'm not to sure the why's and how's of not haveing a docter but I think it has something to do with insurence, the only thing's we would ever see a docter for is severe problems and i'm secretive about my personal issues with my parents & brother's/sister of course so that's not going to happen. This is by no mean's an urgent thread & yes your right jasmin it dose go away eventualy i'm just curious what other's think because online info just ain't all that great with no opinion's/relation.

How about a school (if you still are in school, lol) counsellor or something? It sucks that you don't have access to a doctor. How are you feeling now?

I'm not in school Jasmin like at the last year of middle school we were pulled out & I was alway's in spechil education classes so it's not like I was getting any better any way, i'm okay right now thank's for asking.. how are you? . I seriusly avoid sleeping at night because i'm scared of sleeping & dreaming so like every night i'm up untill 4 - 5+ a.m, I'm really parinoid two thinking some one is watching me from the windows and behind my back, last tramatic dream I had I was pulling blood out of my mouth like a rope "after my mouth filled with some fleshy slime.. so yeah it was only a dream but all to real and wokeup really phisicly sick from it, take what i say as just imformation.

Jason, you could tell your family that you feel sick and ask them if you can go see a doctor. Then you can tell this doctor about it and maybe you'll find a way to see a psych doctor, with the regular doctor's help. You shouldn't have to put up with all this and you shouldn't have to deal with it on your own.
When I used to feel detached from the world I used to stay up all night and I'd get nightmares and really creepy feelings too. I'd either feel aggressive or scared

Hi again Jasmin, I will be okay it's just I wanted to tell some one. Is there any thing that's helped you Jasmin like just normal stuff around the house in your life that's helped?

Well, telling people about my problems has helped me, so good idea talking here. I like to work out a few times a week and spend time cuddling with my cat and that seems to help, lol. But talking to someone and being understood is best for me