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Sudden memories causing depersonalization?

Postby kuso39 » Mon Apr 15, 2019 1:23 pm

I'm new, I'm sorry if this is in the wrong forum. I honestly didn't really know where to put it.

There's a very strange occurrence that happens to me, seemingly at random. I can't pin down any triggers or causes at all. A memory will come to me, very suddenly, and then I'll forget it pretty much instantly. Immediately afterwards, I feel detached from my body. I'm diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, and i've felt like this before, but it was always during or after a panic attack. At the moment of these sudden memories, I'm entirely calm and content.

I haven't been through any mental trauma. They're not flashbacks. I can recall the nature of the memories being entirely benign, but I can't recall the content of them at all. I only know that I just remembered something, and then immediately forgot what it was. That doesn't really worry me, it's the feeling of complete confusion and detachment that comes afterwards. I did google it, thinking maybe this was common. What I could find mostly related to memory loss, with no mention of the dissociative feeling I experienced afterwards, and often it would say this was a result of Alzheimer's and dementia that comes with age. But I'm only 17 years old.

I hope I explained myself clearly enough, of course I can clarify anything that might be confusing. Thank you!
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Re: Sudden memories causing depersonalization?

Postby Lampion » Wed Jul 31, 2019 10:37 pm

Maybe what you are describing is what I've been trying to find out about too :-) Great you describe it that way so I can put another definition to my strange experiences to google further! I have occadionally had hours long tumbling flashes of memory, like when you wake up from a dream and your waking consciousness overtakes really fast and you still see semi transparent dream images/memories but they race away behind you and you can't hold on. Except that feeling keeps coming as an overlay over ordinary reality. I've had it after a review with my boss where I mentioned something personal (anxiety through suppressing feelings?), and went back to work with this going on. And in restaurants with friends or family (again places where I had to behave and suppress my emotions). I have found out luckily that a small amount of Xanax (or perhaps any other relaxant) stops it. I call it "constant déja vu" for wont of a better description. Still have to tell my therapist (a psychiatrist) about it, but quite sure it is a form of dissociation. Glad you know for sure your memories are benign :-) In my case the images are too quick, but also not in themselves scary or nasty. Good luck!
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