New to the forum, and I cant feel myself

So, Im new, Ive posted that fact in a couple of the other threads.

So sometimes, like right now that Im hallucinating a bit, I feel numb. My body feels like I'm not in it.Its like I'm floating right above my body and can see what Im doing but I cant feel what Im doing.I cant feel the keyboard under my fingers as, I type, I feel like my brain is in a dream I cant control, like I'm watching myself in some sort of holographic reality.I'm seeing bugs, and hearing voices, but is this really happening to me or am I in a dream right now?

Im waiting to wake up and go to work and have a normal night,but I'm afraid that I'm not gonna wake up this time. I honestly cant tell if I'm in reality or not.

Is disso'ed behavior a coping mechanism? Is this how I cope with my hallucinations?

UGH