*Trigger Warning* satanic abuse

did anyone ever have satanic abuse? i know this is really weird and possibly sounds fake, but when i was little, about 5, someone killed one of my pets infront of me. it was a little turtle. they showed me the blood on their hands. i have the memory fresh in my mind. to this day i sometimes look at my hands etc.

i dont know..was someone an adult? talk to a T possibly. I think the should fact that your on here typing let me know that it is bothering you.. Talk about your life...What is history with animals as a adult????......Trust your T and when ready tell them of your trauma...


A little about me....My young sister wrote a book at age 12, I was 13 when I read it about an animal. Her and I can only remember the title...From the title, it seems like there may have been something about killing animal, but are not really sure, because the pages where lost during a move. Her and I don't have memories of the content of the book....This is relevant now because of years in T talking about abuse. I've been really afraid to research about this topic SA, SRA because I kinda didn't want to know more, but also know that memories can surfrace at any time....As an adult I have a love/like relasitonship with house animals...But that is only a clue to the puzzle...