I have a quick question,
Can 0piates, such as Vicodine, cause depersonalization?
I took a combined total of 11 Vicodine in one week(extremely high dose for first time) 6 months ago and the "high" never really went 100% away, at the time I thought I was still high, but it has been getting worse and worse up to this point.
I am afraid this is the Prodromal Phase of psychosis because opiates can trigger the onset of psychosis if you are "vulnerable", without going into much detail of my childhood, I feel as if I was.
Some of the things I have experienced:
-Disconnection
-Feeling like I'm in a dream(Unreality?)(active)
-Numbness(active)
-Lessened Pain(active)
-Looking into a mirror and feeling like its not me(active)
-Sleep Problems
-Sleepless Nights(Was frequent, Rare anymore)
-Waking up in the middle of the night, unable to go back to sleep(Occasional)
-Vivid Dreams
-I've Woken up wondering where the people from the dream are(Happened once)
-Nightmares(Occasional)
-Brain fog
-Random thoughts, This is rare but I will randomly think a thought that is irrelevant to what i am doing or thinking at that time Ex: (thinking about DP/DR) The carnival is nice this time of the year. (Occasional)
-Lose track of thought or what I was doing easily(active)
-I find it hard to focus on something more than a minute, I did not have this problem before(active)
-Anxiety(Previous to this, I never had anxiety before)
-Panic attacks(infrequent) 7-10 since this has started
-Trembling, Shortness of breath, heartrate rises, feeling of disconnection intensifies GREATLY, Ect.
-Hearing
-People sound different, not distorted, just "off"(active)
-My own voice sounds foreign to me(active)
-I used to be able to hear my voice being calling in the midst of other voices, now I cannot, I have had people 5 feet from me yelling my name and I did not realize it until they got my attention by touching me.
-Vision
-I feel overwhelmed and as if I cant retain anything I see.(active)
-I feel as if my eyes are "jumpy", not all the time, just when I focus on a moving object. It is weird and I cant really explain it accurately without you experiencing it.(active)
-Other
-Slightly more irritable, could be just because of stress from this problem.(active)
-Withdrawal from most people(starting to force myself to be more social)
My anxiety is almost completely gone and has been for the past 2 weeks, I've been more pissed with this feeling than I have been anxious,
this makes me worry that this is psychosis, because psychosis just takes away your awareness that there IS a problem, and I feel like this is a "beginning of the end" kind of thing.