Help?

I'm 16 years old, I suffer from depression, anxiety, and schizotypal personality disorder. Lately I've been very distraught. My therapist has far previously addressed my condition, and has categorized me in many different ways, "analytical" "overly aware" (socially) among a lot of other $#%^. But that doesn't help me. I can't communicate with my peers or my family in any meaningful way. My schoolwork has been lagging as I can no longer comprehend the way I used to. I'm really scared. I want to hurt people. I want to kill people I want to get out I don't even know why I'm typing this.

Wittgendoge wrote:I'm 16 years old, I suffer from depression, anxiety, and schizotypal personality disorder. Lately I've been very distraught. My therapist has far previously addressed my condition, and has categorized me in many different ways, "analytical" "overly aware" (socially) among a lot of other $#%^. But that doesn't help me. I can't communicate with my peers or my family in any meaningful way. My schoolwork has been lagging as I can no longer comprehend the way I used to. I'm really scared. I want to hurt people. I want to kill people I want to get out I don't even know why I'm typing this.

Hi Wittgendoge,
you are going through a tough time, your age already calls for it. you know, i can relate so good to your categories, analytical and overly aware...is like being over sintonized, if this word exists...
i do not communicate well with my family...
i wish sometimes i had done something about it years ago, but i just let it go and many many years have gone by.
your schoolwork is suffering, could it be related to all being to busy with your thoughts and emotions?

i also had problems in college, it was like my understanding without previous noticed would just go off. I ended up moving around subjects that i could deal with, algebra and anything with numbers disappeared from my curriculum.

it can get better, you just need, to see what triggers your :
not being able to understand
being afraid
wanting to kill people

if you are able to catch the emotion of the thought behind...it will help.

but i have a psych three years and still learning.....
keep in touch

Thank you very much. Your advice gives me a sense of empathic understanding I have never experienced before. I was not aware that there were others that shared my circumstance in the past, present, or future. I will remain hopeful towards the social contact.

Hi wittgendoge,
is that dutch?
anyway, so that you know, despite all my cognitive, emotional, and mental issues,
i have been able to make a degree, get married, have three kids, divorce, etc...
life goes on..
the better we know our body, the better we are able to use what works well,
and move around circumstances that drains us off.

however, i can say since i am much older than you, that just avoiding, might bring you to a moment in life, in my case regarding my family, that i wish it was different. but relations are a two way street, coming from a disfunctional family, i am not the only one dealing with issues.
i am glad you will remain open regarding social contact.

also the timing to look for help is belangrijk at some point....but always take the time to research good the help before a crisis.

keep posting!!

Thank you very much for the advice. I am very relieved that there is potential for a positive outcome from my circumstance. I wish you luck and good fortune with your future ventures, as you have aided me in the stabilization of mine.

Wittgendoge wrote:Thank you very much for the advice. I am very relieved that there is potential for a positive outcome from my circumstance. I wish you luck and good fortune with your future ventures, as you have aided me in the stabilization of mine.

Hi Wittgendoge!
thanks also to you, the forum is a good place to share...i am beginning to think that mental health is a path and not necessarily an objective...i have met so many healthy people that are farther away from finding a balance or looking for one, than me, that i know i am not doing so well.

take care!!