Just been Diagnosed with this illness

So I had no idea I was suffering from DPD until a few months back when my depression and anxiety had manifested itself into a state I could only describe to my doctor as feeling unreal. Now here is what led to my predisposed illness being triggered, my childhood was one that can only be described as healthy my parents rarely fought and my relationship with my brother was good but the only problem was that I had a tendency to expect things to come my way with little or no effort required as long as I payed attention so this attitude continued until the age of 15/16 which was when I realized that I was actually slacking so I decided to get into sports.

In the space of 1 year I was running sub 30 10k races but this wasn't enough for me and I tried my hand at triathlons and found out that this was the perfect sport for me as I was always challenging myself. Now my Education on the other hand was below par as a result but I turned a blind eye to this as I was working 125 hours a month as a lifeguard eventually I found myself feeling depressed but drinking and smoking cigarettes remedied this and as a result I stopped my sports and started focusing all my effort into socializing with amounts of alcohol even Ernest Hemingway would be proud of , i carried a daily routine of going to school / working and then drinking 2-3 pints a night with an average of 2 20 packs of smokes everyday for a year and a half but it got to a point where the alcohol stopped working and I tried anti-depressants.

After quiting my job and failing at school I fell into a deep depression that anti-depressants where not helping and was eventually hospitalized for 2 and a half weeks in this time I received CBT and was disagnosed with depression and anxiety. I relapsed after 3 months and wound up spending all my time inside the house with my mum and dad and this has continued to this day but I have been recommended to a trauma clinic in Oxford (England, I am British) to help me get in touch with my body again as I have become completely depersonalized to the point where I split my time between my bedroom and the living room as I have also developed agoraphobia yep as if dpd wasnt enough for a 20 year old.

So here is my view on people who have predisposed dpd , if you are having CBT with no luck then you are wasting your time as talking therapies cannot actively treat an illness, secondly look into treatments such as somatic experiencing *mod edit* and try to book yourself into a clinic that focuses on these techniques as they aim to reconnect the mind and body , not in a spiritual way but a proven method. Drugs such as lamotrigine and clonazepam realy any anti-convulsive/ psychotic medication can be used as a temporary measure other than that all I can say is that I am trying to accept that this is how I am going to be for the time being and no matter how much I may want to be myself again it is just not going to happen, I cause daily arguments at the moment because I am finding it hard to cope but I do find that having an outcome such going to a trauma clinic helps on a subconscious level.

Thanks guys would like some support and I will keep you updated on how things are going