Bad Experience After Smoking

Hey guys. This is my first post here, the reason I am posting here is because I really need to get to the bottom of this and I want to find out if I am not the only one who has experienced this before. A couple of months ago in September, I sat down with my friends and had a couple of cones. I felt pretty chilled out and all was well, I was really tired at that point in time and I started to close my eyes. When I closed my eyes I started to "see" my thoughts, basically my thoughts were just really vivid. I must have fallen asleep because I eventually woke up feeling extremely munged. I can't remember much from there but I remember shaking extremely violently, I was extremely freaked out. I couldn't control my actions and my vision and everything around me started to feel unreal, almost like a video game. After a while I could start to regain control myself, however I could feel myself slipping back into this state where I wasn't able to control myself. The whole thing was a terrible experience and I've never had such an experience smoking weed before.

The day after I could still feel the effects lingering, I felt depersonalized, derealized and dissociated from reality. This would continue for a while and I would even feel it while smoking weed from there on. It's been a couple of months since that night and I still feel the effects, although to a lesser extent. I find it hard to focus on things, my vision is a bit distorted, it feels constricted, small and like it isn't happening, almost video game like, it's extremely "smooth" as well. I feel unreal like I don't exist, just like how I felt on that night. When I daydream I lose sense of what is around me and completely disregard my surroundings, time is distorted when I daydream and it's like the physical world doesn't exist when I dream. My dreams feel more vivid, lucid and real than reality itself, it sucks so much and I find it hard to explain it. When I think my thoughts feel real it is so scary, especially when I worry about the stupid things that I obsess over, like being stabbed, murdered or killed. I haven't smoked weed in nearly two months and I'm wondering if this could be psychological withdrawals from it?

Another possibility is that I am experiencing Pristiq withdrawals. I cut the tablet in half and take it like that, because it is cut it removes the time coating release.

Maybe this is all in my head and I'm over thinking things. A year ago I thought there was something stuck in my throat, every time I would swallow it feel like it would only go down the left side of my throat. After tests from the doctors it was determined that it was all in my head. I have extreme OCD, so I pick up on things that most people wouldn't notice and I fixate, obsess and worry over it. I'm sorry for posting this here, I just need some explanation. Is it best that I stay off weed or do you think smoking it would help me? Please, I need some explanation, I don't know what to do anymore.

My DPD has gotten extremely bad over the past couple of days. I found a long lost friend that I haven't spoke to or seen since my childhood, I found her and now everything feels all surreal and like it's a dream. Can these sort of events make DPD worse?

Hi

Sorry you are feeling bad. Smoking weed can precipitate all sorts of mental illness in ppl who are susceptible and the effects of this can linger. I would suggest that you see your Dr for an assessment into this to see if there is anything they can do to help eg with meds. I would also suggest totally laying off the weed as it sounds like you dont react well to it at all. I have a friend who became unwell following smoking weed and I dont react well to it (I have BP and psychosis which is worsened by it). Like I said some ppl are susceptible to this and whilst I am not here in a professional capacity and you would need to confirm with a Dr it does sound like you might be one of those ppl. I hope you can get some help and also feel better soon

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It's one of those things that I definitely want to avoid. The depersonalization has been worse recently, when I found my old childhood friend who I hadn't seen or talked to since my childhood and saw her face I just felt so unreal, it was like I've seen her before and I felt unreal and a sense of deja vu and fogginess.

Cryptopsy wrote:It's one of those things that I definitely want to avoid. The depersonalization has been worse recently, when I found my old childhood friend who I hadn't seen or talked to since my childhood and saw her face I just felt so unreal, it was like I've seen her before and I felt unreal and a sense of deja vu and fogginess.

Sounds like avoiding it is a good idea. What do you think about seeing a Dr about your symptoms?

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