Question EVERY emotion is this normal? Please help.

I really dont know how to explain this very well...But I feel like EVERY time I have a feeling that, that feeling goes on trail... And there is a jury in my mind that debates back and fourth, questioning my feeling, and its excistance and if its allowed, or justified.

For example, a couple of days ago I felt upset( idk why I just had somthing hit me). Soon as I felt the emotion I just went nuts. I kept hearing intrusive thoughts in my head, telling me my feeling was made it, its not real, im just making it up for attention, I am just a attenion hore. I am doing wonderful, everything is good in my life I have no reason to feel that feeling, its fake, I am making it up, I have no hurts, I have no pain, im making it all up, its all not real.
I get so overwhelmend with these thoughts... They happen with everything involving my emotions.
The other day I was thinking, " I feel really numb." And the thoughts started again, " no you arent numb" you just think your numb" you arent depersonlization you just think you are, its all in your head... Then I start wondering if I am TOO present verses not present enough, and if I really even suffer from depersonlization maybe thats all in my head too? Idk,
I dont know whats real anymore, I am typing this now I see my hands moving on the keys touching each key but its hard to connect with them. I know they are my hands, but they dont feel like they belong either, I dont feel like I excist.
Is this normal? Can anyone relate? no suger coating nessisary, I just need honesty. Maybe I am good and everything is good, and its all in my head, thats what I think somtimes, that im just making feelings up for some reason. Even when I am alone in my bathroom with no one around I feel my emotions arent real. Even my numbness isnt real, everything is in my head. Its all fake, and if I would stop being a idiot and making these feelings up I would be good, because I feel that I am good, but I keep ruining it by creating these illusions of feelings....

I'm no expert, and I'm not going to be 100% useful, (well I guess you never know)

I don't get the arguments over what I'm feeling, but I do get this feeling of the non existence sometimes, walking along the roads, sitting in college, traveling on the bus, even in the bath tub.

I'd look into some of the other topic forums on this website, sometimes just one topic doesn't cover everything you know

I'm not sure if this is similar or not, but is is kinda related to the thoughts about the upsetness- lately I've seemed to, when I do have a feeling, feel anger. Always anger, for seemingly no reason- so, I definitely have been trying to figure out why my mind is doing that, questioning if what I was yelling was me saying it. I mean, I know it was me, I was there and saw it all happening, but it feels weird. Was I really angry? Was I looking for a fight? If so, why would I do that, when I've never done that before? As you mentioned, it's like I question if it were justified or not. So you're certainly not alone in questioning emotions.

I understand, I feel that way too all the time. I am currently trying to see if I have DID or DDNOS because my personality switches and I do have conversations with other parts. But yep, when I feel or think something or say, I think "Am I really feeling or thinking this? You are just faking to fit the part. No, this is real. Is it? Am I real? Crap" or along those lines. As far as normal goes, I have read up on a lot of these dissociative disorders and symptoms and so it is not uncommon at all, among dissociative people. If you are worried about it, you should talk to a person specializing in psychology. You probably already thought of that, but it really is the best way to tell and find a way to change your life for the better if there is a problem. Hope that helps a little.

I have something similar (although not to the same extreme as you do) where I constantly question my motives for feeling something, or believing it. I have started writing a diary. This helps somewhat because I can write down what happens and then detail my feelings and then I can show myself that it would be perfectly normal to have such a reaction to a particular scenario, and then i can be content that I did actually feel that thing.

But easily the most successful strategy I have found is to be around people. When you are engaged in conversation you don't have the time to be constantly evaluating yourself, you can focus on someone else instead of questioning yourself.

Hope this helps.

I do the same thing, basically, it is typical of DPD/DID. Unlike Sentence, though, I can't keep a diary or anything like it, I can't write anything down... it doesn't help me, it makes me crazier. If I try to write anything I just end up having to throw it out, I can't stand it being around as something I did. Rather leave no trace.

Hi, I have dpd and did. For months I have been living as though I were floating in the clouds. I have felt this way many times before. The severity and duration changes. I think questioning what we are thinking or saying to ourselves is normal for people like us. lol. Don't be too hard on yourself. Their are people just like you and I. I find it almost impossible to ground myself its one of the reasons I wanted to talk to people on this site. Lately I have been wondering if its not better for me to live perpetually in the clouds. Being here but not really. Its almost like being naughty.
I just want you to feel ok with yourself.
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