harrassment by a person afraid of being outed as gay?

I am in my mid-twenties and over the last couple of years I believe I have been suffering from paranoid personality and/or delusions . For the most part I appear like most people; I will be graduation from law school this summer. Whenever, I have a breakdown in a relationship both personal and professional, I begin to have paranoid delusions.

Episode

I was involved with a man that I believe was homosexual and asked him if he was due to his issues. He had trouble getting an erection, keeps small tubes of lubrication in his coat pocket, went to an all-male school, likes anal sex and that is the only way his penis gets fully erected, carried two different size condoms, whenever the penis entered the vagina it would go flacid, and wanted to have sex while watching porn. He said my conclusion was CRAZY! It really hurts to think I was being used as a cover, afterall, this guy asked me out three times. I thought he liked me.

after my accusation………………..

connections 1: i was on s. beach and the gay guy happen to run into me on the beach (during a time where attendance was over 350,000 people). a minute later a man (tom) who i was planning to meet on the beach, after he asked for my number the night before, called me and said he was on the beach somewhat near me.

connection 2: the same man (tom) i met on s. beach always calls within 5 minutes of me getting home or me arriving at my internship, (my schedule isn’t consistent, so he really doesn’t know my hours)—>possibly a tracker

connection 3: two occassions in which the gay guy was going to see me, he was wearing a miami jersey, the same place I met tom. I rarely see this gay guy on campus, so i thought this was odd.

connection 4: tom lives in the same city that the gay guy’s mentor (professor at our school) went to undergrad.

connection 5: a person who i considered a good classmate told me that the gay guy told her, I thought he was gay. i told her why i thought that. the next day, on my way to class the gay guy and the man i think is his lover, were talking on the side walk. the same sidewalk i must pass to get to class. our paths never crossed at this time for the whole semester. so i thought it was odd they happen to be standing there the day after i told my classmate stuff. i believe it was to intimidate me.

CONCLUSION 1: i believe I am being followed and my phone is being tracked, because he is afraid i will OUT him.

CONCLUSION 2: i believe that this man TOM is only communicating with me to get information to take back to the gay guy who is afraid I will OUT him.

Please Help! Does this sound like paranoid delusions, if so, what can an uninsured person do to help themselves through this time?

Hi Pretty, welcome to the forum.
I guess I'd have to say that you need to listen to your instincts. Mine kinda say that there is something to what you suspect as far as what these guys might be up too.
Heres a link to an amazing resource about threatening relationships. Take the free test in the Threat by University Student section or even the one about Male Threats in Relationships. I think it may give you a little more clarity. Let me know what you think afterwards 'k?
https://www.mosaicmethod.com/
Be Safe hun,
One

Thank you onebravegirl! I really do appreciate your response. I guess the fact that not many people are responding is also an indication as well. Maybe, if my situation was bizzare, I would have a flood load of negative comments telling me I'm crazy and should see a doctor. Once again, thank you!

Pretty I think you might get more responses if you move this topic to the Living With Mental Illness thread near the top of the Forum Page. Did you take the test? Did it help you see things clearer?
With Hope,
One

prettybrowneyes wrote:Thank you onebravegirl! I really do appreciate your response. I guess the fact that not many people are responding is also an indication as well. Maybe, if my situation was bizzare, I would have a flood load of negative comments telling me I'm crazy and should see a doctor. Once again, thank you!

I'm confused about one thing...do you know for a fact that this guy you used to date and Tom know each other? Or do you just assume they do from what you've experienced

Most of the connections you see seem to me to be explainable by coincidence.

Although I hate the Colts, I must say "thank you" for replying to my post. Pretty much it's coincidences. It has only been 6 months, so I guess more time would help me decipher b/w what's JUST coincidences or if something more is going on. My father did go through a period of when he thought he was being followed, maybe what I'm going through now is hereditary.