I'm so confused as to whats happening to me...

It all started off about two years ago.. I was fourteen and was dating a boy for 2 years prior to this.... I guess you could say he wanted to know where I was every single moment of the day... It was an online relationship probably not the best choice.... Two years later we broke up... He tried stabbing himself infront of my eyes.... But I left him despite the fact... I just... Wanted freedom.... I lied to him alot, and i couldn't really understand why I did.... A few months in, my new boyfriend noticed that a few tings weren't adding up in our realtionship. I claimed to have had a multiple personality disorder.... I was constantly calling him... Lying to him about things that have happened.... Talking as if there were other personalities.... And I began to not understand truth from reality. I was caught in a huge lie... I knew if I told the truth, Id (so i thought) be screamed at.... but... he didn't yell at me... he forced it out of me.. and was angry with me... but.. he held me afterwards... and Just was... silent... Since then... its been a few more months (sorry for exact dates) ill be turning 18 soon.. and he will have been dating me for a little over a year..... Hes cornered me a couple times with my lies and tried to make me stop.... speaking to me about every little detail... And I.. I know i lie... its so hard not to... BUt... he said.. that if I lie one more time... our relationship is over with....

I guess what im trying to say, is... im not really sure what to do anymore... I guess thats why im here... To ask for some assistance.... I realise im a compulsive liar... Im not sure what started it... but.. I just want to end the habit... Ive had enough of it... i really have... I hate to see him.. or my friends hurt.....Is there anything I could try doing to end the habit? Is there anything he could try doing? Is there something else that may be causing it that I have overlooked? Feel free to ask questions..... As long as they help you figure out what to do... then I wont hesitate to answer....

Hi, Kittygal110! Could you look for a therapist who's dealt with this before? You might need it in order to get better. Try to explain to your boyfriend that you care about him and you're not doing it to hurt him, but that you have a problem and it might not be possible to just stop, you might need help and you also need patience from him. If you do catch yourself telling a lie, admit to it right away and tell the truth, especially if it's your boyfriend that you lied to. It's probably the best way to get him to trust you.

Where would i find a therapist... I don't exactly want very many people finding out about it....
Is there a phone number that I could call? Someone that I can make an appointment with (Canada, Halton Region)
I'm not exactly sure where to start with it... It's hard to confess, I know that he won't punish me in any way. But I'm so use to being screamed at from family issues... For example, I refuse to help out at home because i seem to always mess something up.. and have my mom scream at me.... Is there a way that I can get by this fear and actually tell him the truth... Or do you think I should just speak with somebody?

You could go to your doctor and ask him/her where you could find a good psych doctor or therapist. Maybe there are even some support groups where you live. I think it might even be free there in Canada.
You could write all your feelings in a letter and give it to him and tell him that it'd mean a lot to you if he understood.

Going to a therapist is a good idea, and keep in mind that they are bound by strict confidentiality laws- what you tell them will go nowhere. Also- join a twelve step group. This is about the only way that people are able to kick an addiction (which is what compulsive lying is). You will find that other people go through the same things as you do- you will have a sponsor (someone to hold you accountable), and a strong support system (other people). 12 step programs REALLY do work- and not just with chemcal dependency. I am a therapist myself and have worked with countless obsessive-compulsive behaviors and addictions and have found that the most effective way to stop is a 12 step program. All it required is your committment to change. Remember also that lying is your way of releiving some anxiety in your life...