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I have a lying problem. I have no idea why I do it? I mena I know where and when it started but when I lie I have no clue why I just lied, I have nothing to gain, an dI only push away people that I like/love it makes no sense.

I seriously have no idea why I do it I am so confused and know that if the people who I told the lies to knew they would be hurt really hurt and that saddens me. I have no idea where to start to fix this problem I do it once every few years it's absolutely nuts...it's always some sort of tragedy that I lie about, mostly someone getting sick or me getting sick...I need help!

I am a mom now I wish I could make this go away I'm afraid how this is going to affect my family.

Hi, lyingmommy! Welcome to the forum. I'm not an expert on this, but maybe you could just admit that you've told a lie right after you tell it or maybe find a way to relax and at least admit it to yourself and get some controll over it that way. You need to get better for your new family.
Perhaps you tell these lies becouse you need to be comforted about something else, so you say this stuff to get a reaction out of people. I hope you get well soon.