Can't stop lying to my parents

I have been lying to my parents for as long as I can remember. Each time I create a new lie, they are getting more and more disappointed in me and less mad. They say how if I really cared about them more than the things I'd lie about, then I'd stop. And it's true, I do care about them and I love them so much, but I can't stop. So they keep on believing that I don't truly think they're more important.
Every time I get caught, and I know that I will never get away with anything, but it doesn't seem to help me stop. They always give me a consequence, and then before it's even over, I screw up my life again and lie about something else. I truly believe that I'm addicted to lying, and I've dug a hole so deep, to climb out and start a lie-free life seems like such a big a task, and I just can't do it.

I love them so much, but they can't see it. I want a good relationship, and I want them to be proud of me, but that can never happen until I stop lying to them.
If there's anyone who is in a similar situation or who can help me, please. I really don't know what to do. I've already lost my family, I don't want to lose my friends and everyone I care about.
Thank you all so much.

Welcome to the forum ,

I am sorry that you are struggling with this . Has anyone ever suggested that you see a professional about this ? Your parents have to know by now that this isn't a choice for you .

If you want to stop , you have to take steps to make it happen . These include finding someone to talk to about the problem . I don't think you've lost your family . I think they are just resigned to the fact that you are not trying to change your behavior .

Have you asked for their help ? Have you told them that you don't want to be like this and you don't know how to stop ?

You can learn how to overcome the compulsion to lie . You can have that life that you want . Please reach out and tell someone that this is more than you can deal with by yourself .

It's a long journey , but in the end it's worth the effort .