Liar, need help!!

So, I've been lying about major stuff since kindergarten and back then i did it to fit in. Nowadays lying just comes naturally to me, and i lie about unnecessary things, like what i ate for breakfast. But sometimes i also lie to please people, because my messed up brain tells me I'll hurt them if i don't. Now I'm lying to a guy i really like (online) and he thinks he knows me but EVERYTHING I've told him has been a big great lie, I even lied about my birthday..

I've held all these (HUGE) promises that i can't keep to him, like I'd buy him two tickets to this band he loves on his birthday. I told him i'd give him those tickets as a return of what he's done for me. He's always wanted to send me all these presents and stuff but i told him i couldn't take them but the real reason why i didn't take them was because I've lied about my adress, life, job etc. And to this girl I've become great friends with, I told I'd visit her at christmas..But i won't since I'm not even from the U.S!! What should i do? I'm completely anonymous online and they don't even know the real me, but I'm so afraid of disappointing them, especially when one of them's the sweetest guy ever!!


Please don't judge, I know I'm messed up . And it feels so good to write this because it's seriously the first time i haven't lied. I'm a teen btw

Hi dear! I've been lying since kindergarten too and most of the time I do that to please people around me and so that my mom won't compare me to my cousin or my friends. I've been trying to stop all these lying since like 2 months ago. And these days I've started to set goals for each days. It works well for me. Maybe you can try it too! Oh and I haven't even told my parents about my compulsive lying because I'm still not ready and I don't know if I'll be ready or not forever.. but I think, at least I'm trying to stop my compulsive lying so that I won't hurt anyone again, including myself.