about 10 months ago i've come to the realization and acceptance that i'm a compulsive liar and its a real problem. i dunno the nature of compulsive lying, there are times i can tell the truth, such as right now, but then there's other times i just impulsively, compulsively lie. i usually don't notice i have lied until after the fact. sometimes i made a ridiculous or silly lie and other times i make really big serious lie without realizing it. luckily i've managed not to lie my way into something with serious consequences.
my therapist says that i have this crazy fantasy in my head that i'm like a sociopath or something and far too often i find my lies going with a fictional chain of events that a sociopath likely experienced. it causes me to say very inappropriate things that can often get me into trouble, break off relations with acquaintances and friends, and sometimes banned from forums. that one very serious problem.
the 2nd problem is exaggerations, this results in people not taking me seriously.
3rd problem is me confusing the truth and often time i believe in my own lies and sometimes i get delusional because of it.
and the final problem is that when i confess to lying i generally find myself becoming manipulative with the confession and usually without fail i get the person to do what i want. people who become aware of this manipulative side of me generally break off all contact and its cost me friends and alienated me from social gatherings.
how do i stop this? or at least get it back to where i can control myself?
i've been trying (on and off) for the last 10 months trying to curb the lies but i haven't made much progress and there things that happened that are just like my usual fantasy lies but i think they are real, i dunno what really happened! my therapist says sometimes i "detach" from reality due to the lies.