Do you ever get sick and tired of it all?

Hello ladies and gentlemen. I have been bulimic for 23 years. Lately I've been out of control. I binge and purge like wildfire. But I get so sick of all the crap. The trips to the grocery stores and lugging the stuff in. The expense. The out of control times.

There is only one hope for my recovery, and only I can discover how to find it.

I get sick of restrictions throughout the day. I get sick of being insatiable. I get sick of feeling fat when I'm not that fat.

I started when I was 16. I dropped out of high school. In 2009, I got my GED but due to mental illness too I forgot everything I still recalled in 2009. I am 39 now. I just feel powerless to change.

Does anyone else out there feel out of control and sick of this crap? Feel like you can't stop?

Yep, yep & yep.

I'm on 16 yrs with all this rubbish going on & the scariest thing is wondering if it will never end. I feel like seeing psych over the last yr has made a difference but like u said I need to find the 1 thing that will totally get me too stop...

I'm sick & tired of it wrecking other areas of my life & being this thing I have to carry around & hide. Something my psych said just last week was we needed to name this 'thing' inside my head so we can refer it to separately, that actually makes sense. but I am scared it is just me.

Thanx for helping me share that. Take care, u will find the reason xxx

i ended up getting a root canal in my mouth for a ttooth that decayed so badly from throwing up, all the time. I had a pinched nerve and it worst most painful thing I have ever felt. Then i threw up last night because i was bored and drunk. I WISH I had something to do being alone sucks.