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Sleepless Again.

Postby MadMage » Tue Oct 23, 2012 5:39 am

I can't say I'm really feeling upset or anything amazing tonight... I just can't sleep and wanted to post some idle thoughts.

I'm actually a little surprised how 'level' I've been feeling today; given current events, I'm not really sure I've got cause to be calm about anything. But hey, I guess freaking out isn't going to do anything good for me, so here's to a moment of calm waters! Always before the storm...

Lyrics for your viewing pleasure! In Flames - Sleepless Again

Hopeless times approach
Just give into the chaos
Strangely I find comfort here
Impatient and curious of what may come

And so the rampage begins
Against the headache I can't win
Drain me

Keep me in the dark
I don't want to take part
Prefer to be forever numb

Nothing great can come out of this
But I'm hostage to myself
I fear I might collapse on the razor's edge
And I fear I'll realize when it's too late

And so the rampage begins
Against the headache I can't win
Drain me

Keep me in the dark
I don't want to take part
Prefer to be forever numb

Sleepless again

I need to ease my mind
And kill what burns inside

Sleepless again

I can't wait

Keep me in the dark
I don't want to take part
Prefer to be forever numb
"We think too much and feel too little" -Charlie Chaplin
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby Alexander the Great » Tue Oct 23, 2012 9:27 am

Just be glad you're feeling level and don't complain. If you wanted to just share that song, there's a topic for that.
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby bsl9408 » Tue Oct 23, 2012 9:41 am

Alexander the Great wrote:Just be glad you're feeling level and don't complain. If you wanted to just share that song, there's a topic for that.


I don't think this was really necessary. People are allowed to express how they feel here, regardless of whether it is negative or positive. I don't see any complaints about anything in his post either. Also, it's his post, he can put lyrics in if he wants. There isn't a gun to your head saying open the post and read it. So, in other words, back off and don't pick on people for no reason. This is meant to be a safe and welcoming environment for everyone.
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby MadMage » Tue Oct 23, 2012 11:59 am

*shrug* It's a topic about having trouble sleeping. I figured any random rant worked.

Alexander the Great wrote:Just be glad you're feeling level and don't complain. If you wanted to just share that song, there's a topic for that.

Forgive me, but you seem a little.... snippy today. What's up? Everything all right?
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby Alexander the Great » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:16 pm

bsl9408 wrote:
Alexander the Great wrote:Just be glad you're feeling level and don't complain. If you wanted to just share that song, there's a topic for that.


I don't think this was really necessary. People are allowed to express how they feel here, regardless of whether it is negative or positive. I don't see any complaints about anything in his post either. Also, it's his post, he can put lyrics in if he wants. There isn't a gun to your head saying open the post and read it. So, in other words, back off and don't pick on people for no reason. This is meant to be a safe and welcoming environment for everyone.


It was necessary for me. If he is allowed to express how he feels, then so am I. This is my post, and I can say in it whatever the ###$ I want to say. I don't need to back off, and certainly not because you tell me to. I don't pick on him for no reason. This was a safe place for me and a welcoming environment for me until he came along. He has been triggering the ###$ out of me just about since he got here and I'm sick of it. Trust me, if he's smart enough to act the way he does he doesn't need your help. But people only come in and save the jackasses, don't they? Actual good guys don't ever get any understanding. Just the slimy #####&. He doesn't need you to stand up for him.

MadMage wrote:*shrug* It's a topic about having trouble sleeping. I figured any random rant worked.

Alexander the Great wrote:Just be glad you're feeling level and don't complain. If you wanted to just share that song, there's a topic for that.

Forgive me, but you seem a little.... snippy today. What's up? Everything all right?


I'm snippy because I'm fed up with you.
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby MadMage » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:18 pm

My apologies.

Uhm... what'd I do?
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby ihauntyourhouses » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:23 pm

who is triggered about what now? i can't keep track of all the quotes-of-quotes going on here, but in any case i can't sleep either. am sitting on the rug in my living room as far away from the door as i can get, smoking cigarettes and hoping the fascist health-conscious assholes in the apartments on either side don't wake up in sudden righteous outrage.
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby bsl9408 » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:37 pm

Alexander the Great wrote: I don't pick on him for no reason. This was a safe place for me and a welcoming environment for me until he came along. He has been triggering the ###$ out of me just about since he got here and I'm sick of it.



You can always add him to your foes list :) then you don't see anything of his .. your responsibility to take control of what is triggering you, if he is, you can stop it by blocking him. You also shouldn't open a post by him if he triggers you..
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby Alexander the Great » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:43 pm

I have responded to you both via personal message.
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Re: Sleepless Again.

Postby MadMage » Tue Oct 23, 2012 12:59 pm

In any event, I've woken up approximately 5 hours after I went to sleep because I hate myself and... yeah, that's pretty much all I've got.

Eff this. Here, let's make it a schoolyard fight.

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