Self-awareness moment

I have always told myself that I like people and I am a people person and maybe I would like to be this way, but I have come to realize that I really don't. I have a low tolerance for stupidity and get irritated very easily. I think I do a pretty good job at faking it and I'd consider myself a high-functioning Borderline, but in my mind people are rude, selfish, greedy, lazy, ignorant and I wish I could go around saying how I really felt, but then I would be even more alone then I feel now...I couldn't be a functioning member of society if I behaved that way...

I wish I could just get to a place where I didn't constantly go over and over in my head about how much people are annoying me and how I wish they would JUST BE DIFFERENT! Why can't people just go around and be decent, intelligent and respectful people and be perceptive to others feelings and needs?

People suck.

What gets me is people who DO act like dips and still manage to pass as functioning members of society.

this is so true!! ppl are rubbin me da wrong wayz lately!

So true. But out in public i no longer tend to hold back what im thinking. Their just strangers so i dont care if they know what i feel about them and their actions and behaviors. That way i dont bring home the stress of being around stupid people, i give it to them.

Haha I wish I could go around saying what I think but since I mostly encounter the stupidity at work, that's not possible...

I just see the laziest people say the stupidest stuff and how they manage to keep their jobs is beyond me. Speaking of, I just got to work and have to go clock in. Wish me luck! Lol this place really tests my patience.

Roughdiamond wrote:Haha I wish I could go around saying what I think but since I mostly encounter the stupidity at work, that's not possible...

I just see the laziest people say the stupidest stuff and how they manage to keep their jobs is beyond me. Speaking of, I just got to work and have to go clock in. Wish me luck! Lol this place really tests my patience.

No luck needed - you'll be fine. Just take a few deep breaths before you respond to an idiot.

Yeah, here lately when my director has been starting to get on my nerves, I say I have to go to the bathroom so I can get out of there fast before I say something I shouldn't. So far, that's working pretty well. Part of being an assistant is basically being the other perosn's b*tch, so I guess I just have to get over it. I will just be glad when I finally get to a position where I am allowed a little more independence to exercise my strengths and knowledge to its full potential. Right now I am doing that but she takes the credit for everything and I hate her for it.

I have a low tolerance for incompetence (and stupidity can cause incompetence) and get irritated easily, but I couldn't come up with a load of value judgements on people to justify that. ..well I could but I don't really need to. I feel like I used to waste too much effort on justification when that was really for the sake of others not myself. People get away with acting that way because they use justification to make it appear ok to others.

I wouldn't say I count as a functioning member of society though.

I also encounter this at work! In a way, I can see how working at my job has actually allowed me encounter these people and learn how to interact with them. But, on days when we have a lot of people in my store, and it gets really busy...it's really hard to hold back because it IS a high-stress job with very little room for mistakes (you get all the blame...). Recently it's becoming difficult.

Sometimes I just have no words for how stupid people are. Seriously. No words.

I also cannot stand having to repeat myself under most circumstances.

Why are you so late to the party?

I'm like you in that I wish I was a people person. I wish I liked being around people, but it always leads to frustration and increased anger. I'm sure my viewpoint of the world is very f**ked up but it seems, in part, to fit in I have to be like everyone else, don't rock the boat, don't stand up or say what I believe, never be offensive and I guess that's just not me. I don't think I'm capable of changing that aspect about me, and even if I was I'm not sure that I'd want to because then I wouldn't be me. No matter which way I turn I'm f**ked!!