Recent breakup and BPD

Hi everyone.

I've never really written on any sort of place like this, but I'm just feeling at my lowest at this point. I'm a 19 year old male, and a sophomore in college.

Yesterday, my relationship with my girlfriend ended and I have been a wreck since. It was a rather serious relationship. I have BPD and it ultimately had a lot to do with the breakup, and I am just not sure how to cope.

This girl was the nicest girl I have ever met. She was cute, extremely friendly, and we shared more interests that I could even care to name. Everything I do reminds me of her, and it just really stinks.

Without going into extensive detail, I found out that over the course of the summer, she regularly lied to me to my face, and she got drunk and hooked up with another guy for the 1 day that we were broken up about a few weeks back.

I know this in itself should make me turn away, but if you met this girl, you would understand my problem. She was so sorry for her actions and I was ready to forgive her.

Unfortunately, her parents got involved and we are no longer allowed to see each other. She wants nothing more than to be with me, and I would love to be with her too. However, not having known that I have had BPD for very long, I think it would be best for me to be single for an extensive period of time.

I was in and out of relationships for the majority of high school, and I've never taken time to just "discover" myself, i guess.

I suppose what I'm hoping for by posting here is advice. How do I try to move on? Or where do I go form here so that I can function again without her consuming my thoughts? I'm just so lost right now, and I'm not sure what course of action I should take from here. Thanks.

Easier said than done but to keep busy and build up your social circle.
Find new hobbies and throw yourself into it.

This is the only way IMO, when I'm in that position I get stuck though...but I force myself to do these things as the more people I have around me and the more I'm moving forward and having fun... The less I'm feeling like I'm in the past, an the past is just depression.

aw hon....heartbreaks are the worst!!! these are available to you when you need them...

you're in like company, that i can assure you. if you just scroll through the many breakup posts here, you'll get a sense of everyone's thoughts and what they're doing to cope.

i wish i had a magic word or wand to make the pain go away, but the only real prescription is time. it really does 'heal all wounds'. feel free to share whatever you need to share here...vent, cry, scream, anything that can get you through it. we're here for you.

wineaux