by snapdragon » Thu Aug 16, 2012 9:58 pm
It sounds like you're really open to the treatments, and that's what all talking therapies require. You can't succeed if you don't want it! That's where I went wrong with CBT. When I was being told I kit change how I think, and that I'm supposed to think that I'm wonderful and clever and good-looking... All I would actually think is, "This is stupid". Not the CBT, but what I was supposed to say to myself.
Of course, at the moment I take 40mg citalopram and 100mg quetiapine (Seroquel, Sondate). Yes, I think it works. My moods are more stable. I still have all my BPD traits, but I don't have a near-breakdown if I'm 'abandoned'. However, like most people, it took a while to improve with drugs. I started off on fluoxetine (Prozac) and had CBT. Then I took myself off them and was offered citalopam but refused. Then I had amitriptyline and ended up in hospital because I had really bad lows and took too many. Then I had nothing (just sent on my way from hospital), then citalopram, then saw a psychiatrist and got cit and Seroquel.
So what I mean to say is that drugs and talking therapies go well together, but it can take some time to find a drug that suits you. In my case, it was the bog standard go-to pill that was best all along. Getting offered only lithium seems a bit rubbish when there are so many options.
I hope you find the right course of treatment for you! You're an individual, so what suits some of us may not work for you. But the right combination is out there, you just have to ask.
Best of luck!