by andrei1981 » Wed Aug 15, 2012 7:14 pm
Hi to all! I did not want to start the whole thread , although i have used more than 30 different medications including self -medicating for my bpd. The claim that lithium is lethal and should not be prescribed for Bpd , has its merits but unless you have personally have taken the drug(and most of us react differently to different medications) please do not post about something you have no idea about. In my 34 years always knew where was something wrong with me. I am too sensitive , feel empty all the time and you know the rest . For 10 years i held a steady job . I managed to do it by drinking wine before and after work. I still felt horrific , started gambling in a stock market and lost over $100000.00 in 2 months. I am decent looking (people say that i am very good looking) guy , 6.3 height and 32 waist , yet i have never had a relationship lasting more then a month in my entire life.
Two years ago , my family doctor prescribed me Paxil and when the road to hell began. I do not want to go into too much detail right know , because it hurts too much . Almost any medications you guys and girls are describing in this forum i have used. Probably i have spent more than $30000.00 in the last two years on self medicating drugs because my so called family doctor misdiagnosed me with GAD and gave me the devil pill. I have been blessed to find a doctor that actually cares (i could see it in his eyes) . First he was going to prescribe abilify , but i told him i have tried it already for 3 months with no significant improvenment. Now i am on Lithium and while i am still a shell of a human being , not being able to work or even take long bus trips, i no longer want to jump out of my 15 th floor condo. In 5 days i will meet my new physiatrist and hopefully DBT will work .
For a person who cannot eat or sleep i have been there , benzos will do the trick but the addiction and subsequent withdrawal is horrendous. Try lithium and see how your body reacts to it.