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Hello, I have been dxed as bpd, bp1 & add for over 10 years and on disability. A lot of what I have read here is familiar from past experiences. For what seemed forever, I was a good little girl and took my pills and went to therapy and was vigilant trying to do dbt. I was working back then, constantly manic and generally pissed off. I was in a relationship I wanted out of and on the way to being in trouble with breaking many laws.
Then about 2 years ago, I got so sick and tired of everything I just stopped it all. After about 3-4 months of plain exhaustion and physical and mental havoc from withdrawl. I became very calm and realized how much I like being alone with no one to argue with and to be able to do whatever I want.

In the past year and a half I have had very little contact with anyone save a handful of days of the year and I am calmer and less agitated than I have ever been. Frankly, the only times I get angry or nervous are when I have to be around other people.

Granted I am lonely as hell but I've always been lonely even when I am with other people.
I've put this in the most simple terms, obviously, a lot of things rattle around in my mind constantly but I guess what I want to know is, is it wrong? My family, the few I have any contact with all initially told me how great I seemed to be doing and I should keep it up until I told them that I had stopped everything. Then they changed their minds but that's par for the course.

I'm not saying I'm happy but possibly the least miserable I've ever been and relieved that any distress I may have is my own doing and not from having to live up to anyone's expectations or opinion of what I should be doing.

Has anyone else ever gone through a period like this? Opinions?
Thanks-
jc

I have periods of time where I go crazy living with my parents and sister because I can't stand anything. I can't stand the way they talk, what they say, the sound and volume of their voices, their actions, everything. And then I need to be alone, because I can't stand my friends either. I only have one friend I can never be away from, even at the times I hate her.