Back to deciding whether is borderline or bipolar ?

Personally, i would say both or BPD and then bipolar i don't know though i go on what i research about it and psych opinions a long with behaviours and experiences.

But i found this really good psychologist who relates well with me and does not tell me i am doing better or worse. She is not in a rush to see me and is helpful and genuine even directed me to a free financial advisor because of my credit card and impulsive sprees.

One hypo or random moment last year i turned around and bought $600 sunglasses luckily a man from work knew and made me return them for a refund. I am fortunate about this. I have come home with a pet rabbit i had to have too.
Thats nothing compared to some buying sprees that feel glorious or i OCD about something then when down or tired i won't worry about buying and my sex drive or seductive moods disappear.

But considering my bpd behaviours such as overdosing, chasing men and the times i cut (not all the time but during rejection or desperation to release such emotional pain and anger or distress i have) on top of suicidal feelings and ideation. She said i was certainly pressured like a bipolar person in my talking and also poor judgment and decision making. I have been so paranoid before i thought people from the conspiracy videos i was watching were out to microchip me. My emotions and substance abuse used to cope with these painful feelings have lead me into having a lot of time off work or interfere with work and everyday life.
I am still not on a proper medication due to the f**k around with changing psychs, going back to my other psych, different opinions and diagnosis or just doctors that may not give a $#%^ about me.

Its exhausting.

Anyone else relate to this ?

-- Sat Aug 04, 2012 12:18 am --

WHETHER I AM* (mods change my retarded error thanks)

I have both Bipolar and borderline personality disorder. It's sometimes hard to differentiate between the two and what is a chemical imbalance and what is my personality disorder getting in the way. Hang in there. I'm glad that you have a good therapist. Keep working on the psychiatrist.

Thanks for the reply everyones story is different although if it were the true diagnosis behind me bpd and manic depression i am type 2 not type 1.

Its so common to have or end up with both though and knowing people out there, on here are supportive and understanding makes me believe i have hope in going places in life.