got out of ER last night...its official....

So been in and out of the ER lately (actually my entire life) and I've been diagnosed with PTSD by the Veterans Association (VA) and a shrink at my old hospital said I might have BPD. The BPD comment was 3 months a go and now I start a residents DBT program on August 6 and just was given a official diagnoses of BPD in the ER last night. also mood disorder NOS and Dissociative disorder NOS.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH........... my life is falling apart, but the one thing holding it together is my fiance who is getting us into a new house and I think he hinted to the fact that if I ###$ this up to he is gone. He did say after that no mater what mental ilness i have he will always love me. I cant keep hurting my loved ones my family. They men to much to me and I keep pushing them away and hitting them with verbal and mental hammers and then freak out when they arnt there.

That and I am being kicked out of my apartment but luckly ateh fair housing group here got me an extension with my landlord..... God I am so freaking out....

You can do this.

You're intelligent enough to have accepted diagnoses and found your way here, considered your mental state, begun therapy, and wanted to make a difference.
You're strong enough to have kept going all this time.
You're loving enough to care deeply about your fiance and want to make it work between you, and you have also gained his love and respect despite it all.

The problems you face are problems that have been lived by many others...brains can change over time, emotions can be regulated, lives can be repaired.

It's a tough journey, but you know that, you've lived it. Keep going strong, because you can, because you have it all to do for. We're here for support when things get hard *hug*

Essessareeye wrote:You can do this.

You're intelligent enough to have accepted diagnoses and found your way here, considered your mental state, begun therapy, and wanted to make a difference.
You're strong enough to have kept going all this time.
You're loving enough to care deeply about your fiance and want to make it work between you, and you have also gained his love and respect despite it all.

The problems you face are problems that have been lived by many others...brains can change over time, emotions can be regulated, lives can be repaired.

It's a tough journey, but you know that, you've lived it. Keep going strong, because you can, because you have it all to do for. We're here for support when things get hard *hug*

AMEN to this!

First, you're so lucky to be in the vicinity of residential DBT! That's pretty rare. Congratulations on taking the initiative, too.

Second, focus on you right now. Focus on getting well, and then you can work on building up your life. You'll do just great.

Best of luck to you.

Don't forget to celebrate every little success. You got into a treatment program...success. You're maintaining a relationship (even if tenuously)...success. You survived another crisis...success.


Every little success adds to the big picture. Give yourself credit for getting this far!!!