Starting to talk

I keep this BOD bottled up inside. I started talking.

I was talking with my fiance about swimming lessons for my 5 yr old son who is terrified of water. I was saying why I thought is was a bad idea. He said "Don't be so negative" I said my BPD response which was roughly "That's like saying you want to trade me in for a different model, that you don't want me anymore"

Today was pretty much a fiasco. Labile mood and anxiety delayed our fishing trip for hours, my son was a pill on the boat, I didn't feel like fishing I worked on a sunburn (soothing for me, not making my fiance happy though), we went to the beach after, my son threw a tantrum and BIT ME!!!!! and I took him by the arm, walked him to the truck and we leeft (yay, self-control during a rage response!!!). I totally overeacted to this and was crying on the way home over it but that's more than I want to explain now. When we got home I went to bed. My fiance came to get me for supper and I told him how I ruined his morning, ruined his fishing trip, I ruined the beach and that he should have some time to himself without me spoiling it. He cam back later with a bite of food (OMG, yummy!) to lure me out of bed. lol, so sweet.

So trying to open up and show him what is going on and hopefully improve our communication issues.