BPD Music Tastes

Maybe it's the lyrics?

"Your words to me just a whisper, your face is so unclear, I try to pay attention, your words just disappear. 'Cause its always raining in my head. Forget all the things I should have said. So I speak to you in riddles, because my words get in my way. I smoke the whole thing to my head, and feel it wash away. 'Cause I can't take anymore of this. I want to come apart, or dig myself a little hole inside your precious heart." - Staind

"I have a mark on me, like a brand on my skin that only I can see. I don't know what it means, I get caught up in dreams. I feel like running away. Sometimes you kinda have to get lost, if you're ever gonna find your way back to where you came from. So cut out the heart, and watch the world burn down. Let's tear it apart. Go for the jugular, cut the vein, and kiss it away, kiss it away, kiss it away, everything that brings me pain. And now I know why I do take it out on you, take it on you 'cause you always take it on the chin. That's what you get for letting me in." - Black Light Burns

"You could've been the next one. You could've been the one to comprehend me. You could've been the only one. You come around when you find me faithless. You come around when you find me faceless. ###$ me like you hate me. Dig it up and whore me out. You'll never break me. I've burned down every bridge that I've found, now I limit myself to a six gun quota. I've played down every feeling I've felt, and I've bottled them up until the well ran over. Give every indication that you're mended, take every rule you come across and bend it, and did you ever think to ask my opinion? and did you ever think to ask if I'm ok? It feels so good to be numb, I hate what I have become." - Seether

"She comes along, she gets inside, she makes you better than anything you've tried. It's in her kiss, the blackest sea, and it runs deeper than you dare to dream it could be. Wave goodbye, to what you were, the rules have changed. Is everything speeding up, or am I slowing down, just spinning around, and I don't know why all the pieces don't fit, thought I really didn't give a $#%^. I'd like to stay, but every day, everything pushes me further away. My whole existence is flawed, you get me closer to God. I drink the honey inside your hive, you are the reason I stay alive. There is a game I play, try to make myself okay, try so hard to make the pieces all fit, smash it apart, just for the ###$ of it. Bye bye oooh, got to get back to the bottom. What, the big come down isn't that what you wanted? There is a hate that burns within, the most desperate place I have ever been. The closer I get the worse it becomes." - Nine Inch Nails

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)


I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

Linkin Park, Numb

When my family don't understand me i think of this song, it makes sense to me and helps me feel less alone.

-- Tue May 20, 2014 7:56 pm --

When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful whirl
I wish I was special
You're so ####ing special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice when I'm not around
You're so ####ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here

He's running out the door
He's running
He runs runs runs runs
Runs

Runs

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so ####ing special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here

I will try and group these somewhat:

*The Cure, Siouxsie and the Banshees, The Smiths
*Iggy Pop, Joy Division, The Clash
*The Sex Pistols, Minor Threat

*Death Cab for Cutie, The Postal Service, The Shins
*Passion Pit, Wolf Parade, Freelance Whales, MGMT, Crystal Castles
*Modest Mouse
*The Hives, Incubus, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, The Vines, The Strokes
*Vampire Weekend, Motion City Soundtrack, Matt and Kim

*Thursday, A Day to Remember, Say Anything, Taking Back Sunday
*Mayday Parade, Cute is What we Aim For, Jack's Mannequin
*The Academy is...
*Forever the Sickest Kids, Boys Like Girls
*My Chemical Romance

*Dave Matthews Band, O.A.R., Buju Banton, The Red Hot Chili Peppers (Older material)
*Sublime, 311
*Danger Doom, Death Grips

New Found Glory
Blink 182
Sum 41
Neck Deep
A day to Remember
Fall Out Boy
Brand New
Green Day
Pink
Mae
The Wonder Years
Blondie
Bastille
Fun.
Juliette and the Licks
KoRn
Nine Inch Nails
Rammstein
Mariachi El Bronx

Lots more that I am forgetting!

Hi,

I started to listen obsessively to The Doors when I was 16 and was completely blown away by Jim Morrison and this was many many years before I was diagnosed with BPD. I also loved Janis Joplin and the raw,emotive quality of her voice. It was many years later when I discovered that both were thought to have had BPD. there is a great book about them called,'Living in the Dead Zone'

-- Wed May 21, 2014 10:28 pm --

Hi,

I started to listen obsessively to The Doors when I was 16 and was completely blown away by Jim Morrison and this was many many years before I was diagnosed with BPD. I also loved Janis Joplin and the raw,emotive quality of her voice. It was many years later when I discovered that both were thought to have had BPD. there is a great book about them called,'Living in the Dead Zone'

i loooove music. my favorites are Fiona Apple, Tool [and it's side projects], and Florence and the Machine and Rage Against the Machine and NIN and Joy Division ... AND AND AND lol

some other mentions:
Billie Holiday
Danzig [and his side projects]
Misfits too
Venom
Dimmu Borgir
Opeth
Depeche Mode
The Cure
The Smiths/Morissey
Tori Amos
Sia
Pink Floyd
Queen
Led Zepplin
Imogen Heap
Arctic Monkeys
Madonna <3 lol
Alice in Chains
Old school Metallica

sometimes i have to avoid certain artists like florence and fiona and billie and sia cause they are HUGE triggers for me. i just feel the music so deeply.

-- Thu May 22, 2014 3:07 pm --

Judith Iscariot wrote:I'm seeing a lot of grunge, modern hippie and 90's rock here. Interesting that Nine Inch Nails of all things keeps popping up. Not what I expected but then again I'm not a borderline.

are you kidding??
Trent is a BPD GOD lol ^_^

i used to love Staind. his songs were so self brutalizing. they were an echo of what was in my head when i was a teenager. man i used to write some crazy poetry after listening to them. 4 walls = instatrigger

Talking about fine lyrics.

"..Ahh you've gone to the finest schools, alright Miss Lonely
But you know you only used to get juiced in it
Nobody's ever taught you how to live out on the street
And now you're gonna have to get used to it
You say you never compromise
With the mystery tramp, but now you realize
He's not selling any alibis
As you stare into the vacuum of his eyes
And say do you want to make a deal?

How does it feel, how does it feel?
To be on your own, with no direction home
A complete unknown, like a rolling stone

Ah you never turned around to see the frowns
On the jugglers and the clowns when they all did tricks for you
You never understood that it ain't no good
You shouldn't let other people get your kicks for you
You used to ride on a chrome horse with your diplomat
Who carried on his shoulder a Siamese cat
Ain't it hard when you discovered that
He really wasn't where it's at
After he took from you everything he could steal

How does it feel, how does it feel?
To have on your own, with no direction home
Like a complete unknown, like a rolling stone

Ahh princess on a steeple and all the pretty people
They're all drinking, thinking that they've got it made
Exchanging all precious gifts
But you better take your diamond ring, you better pawn it babe
You used to be so amused
At Napoleon in rags and the language that he used
Go to him he calls you, you can't refuse
When you ain't got nothing, you got nothing to lose
You're invisible now, you've got no secrets to conceal"

FloMac wrote:There's nothing in this WORLD better than music.

Yes Sir, there isn't anything better than music

My fav artists (only including "borderline music"):

- Conjure One
- Balligomingo
- Suzanne Vega
- Pink Floyd
- Enigma
- Loreena McKennit
- Aural Planet
- Oceanlab
- Jaia