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I think BPD is too strong for me to fight anymore and also money is a problem.

I have problems with so many things i was too weak to fight and unless i approve of a credit card then i wont be able to see my sister overseas. My fault but you know when u are so impulsive and everythings mood dependent.

I just feel unwell inside and outside emotionally and physically all the time. There is not enough time and money for proper intense therapy.

I give up.

Not an option, hon. C'mon, you can do this! As a local article recently said, BPD is definitely a rich man's disorder, but that doesn't mean the rest of us don't have a chance. We're not much, but you've got us! A whole bunch of sympathetic, understanding people who know what you're going through. Plus, like every other BPD, we're stubborn. Letting you quit would mean we failed, and we can't do that. Sorry!

I give up.

DON'T do that Rebba!! In some situations the best is to take it on a day-by-day basis, refusing to look at the "big picture" ahead. Things have a habit to sort themselves out while you aren't looking. Whereas if you look, you get worried, terrified, overwhelmed, start to fret = get stuck in a self-perpetuating circle.

(I'm talking about my experience regarding finances - miraculously, i still seem to be somewhat in control of the situation - but only if i refuse to consider the whole picture but tackle it on a day-to-day basis. Not sure if it works the same way in other aspects of life though - probably it does?)

I know exactly how you feel...I actually used credit to go and visit family overseas recently too. Now I'm something like just under £10,000 in debt and I can't pay a penny...so I'm not.

What does giving up mean to you? I know I feel like I don't even want to try anymore too. The thing is that we're not even given a choice. We can't give up. There is no option to give up. We lose with anything we do and it seems unthinkable that anything will improve.

I want to be given a credit card to go overseas i have proof of an income and would only ask 5 grand i am just worried they won't approve it because i don't save and leave money in my account. Not sure how other countries work with credit cards in comparison to Australia.
I think negatively all the time but too late to save now. I can't save.

Yeah one of the reasons i think bipolar was a diagnosis was my spending sprees. Does everyone else have trouble with money and also substance abuse which leads to financial crisis, letting people down and yourself and bad guilt and depression ?

Thanks guys you're a lot I need the support x

rebba87 wrote:Does everyone else have trouble with money and also substance abuse which leads to financial crisis?

yupp. I call that anticapitalism

seriously though, in these economic times one doesn't need a PD to be in dire financial straits. only we suffer more from the stress of it...

I actually have to agree with leFay on the whole anti capitalism thing! I'm not bipolar so have never gone on massive spending sprees because I am such a worrier. I worry anytime I spend ANY money! When I was last working I managed to save a decent amount of money, but living off state welfare is not possible if you want to have a decent standard of living so I had to use much of my savings. I wasn't in any debt but I had a credit card from my bank and I had overdrafts and it was actually my feelings towards the corrupt monetary system that made me go, "Hey, screw this! I want to go see my family so I'm gonna use the credit available to me and they can try to squeeze it out of me".

But Rebba, I'm sure the system is the same as everywhere else. Saving doesn't make you look good. I saved and never took out credit and my credit rating was poor. If you pay everything on time and have nothing outstanding that you have to pay off they think they're not going to make any money from you and so your credit score is not good. You've got a better chance of being approved with no savings and actually having some debt. The fact there's no money in your account is also good in their eyes, as long as you're paying off your overdraft.

I don't suffer from substance abuse but money is a big contributor to my depression and I think a lot of people's too. We need a big change in the world!

Thanks guys you mean a lot to me with your support and kind words on top of all your own struggles in life with BPD.

If i am approved of this credit card of five grand i will brighten up for sure.

I won't give up yet got to wait to find out if its approved and get through this week anyway.

Much love xo

rebba87 wrote:If i am approved of this credit card of five grand i will brighten up for sure.
I won't give up yet got to wait to find out if its approved and get through this week anyway.

Good stuff!

(Just make sure you're in control of the situation with the repayments etc. - basically, that you don't overspend in the spur of the moment. I slipped up there badly, hehe.. )
Take care!

About 2 grand will be used to book flights and the rest to take overseas so should be fine.

I am just stressed about everything and everything seems to be the end even my hair dresser i already paid is sick with tonsilitis now i am paranoid about regrowth and people seeing and hating me.

I hate Sydney society its so shallow and superficial its hard to be bpd anywhere but in a society this judgemental i will never be capable of good enough for anyone.