by Vanna123 » Sat Jun 09, 2012 2:33 am
I think BPD criteria fluctuates from person to person at diagnosis. There isn't a specific way someone must be in order to have the disorder, but they must have (I believe) 5 out of 9 criteria.
That being said, every person reacts to their criteria differently. I too was confused with the "frantic efforts to avoid abandonment" because I was never clingy or manipulative in relationships. In fact, while talking about this very subject with my therapist, I told her I have the opposite of fear of abandonment. Yes I do become the most alive in an intense relationship and mirror myself to that person's desire of what I think they want, all the while admiring them on the pedestal I've put them on. As soon as I get one small indication that they are about to leave (real or imagined), I immediately find one tiny thing that I actually dislike about them and blow it up until I (very quickly) decide I loathe them and cannot tolerate them another minute. I suddenly break off the relationship for good and never look back.
My therapist told me this was in itself an abandonment issue. I reject them before they can reject me because me walking away is so much less painful than watching them leave me. I really became crystal clear after she told me that. So while I don't think the fear of abandonment is required, it certainly can be there - only masked in differences of our behaviors, beliefs and attitudes.