TRIGGER WARNING: Wide awake and still in pain

Can anyone help me? I'm feeling painfully lonely. It's been a hard night so far. I remembered that my counselor didn't want me any more as it was beginning and since then it's been a struggle not to drink, cut, get high, etc. I took an herbal sedative instead, at the behest of my boyfriend, but popped right back awake 15 minutes ago with no-one else up. I can't get back to sleep and I'm really hurting.

Hey I'm sorry you're feeling this way I hope things are looking up now. Have you thought about being hospitalized even for just a short while? May help to get away and be able to talk and get more help. I'm always here if you need anything to talk vent give advice whatever you need feel free to pm me anytime. Take care