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I have these two best friends that always go and hang out with eachother and have fun and dont invite me. It always makes me super upset, to the point where I wanna die... Is this a symptom of borderline or is this just me and ill never be able to fix it and ill be stuck this way forever?

You mean is getting super upset about it a symptom of BPD? Kinda. I'm sure that most everyone, BPD or non, would feel very badly about a situation like that, but it is amplified in us. So to answer your question, the feeling isn't a symptom of Borderline, but the intensity probably is.

There's nothing that says you'll be stuck like this forever. DBT can help people learn to control these reactions. Also, the symptoms of BPD mellow as you age, so quite literally, with time and effort, the feelings won't stick.

Thanks.