Officially Joined The Club

It's not surprising that you're not ready to take steps on it, yet. It takes a little while to come to terms with it. There's the shock of being diagnosed with it in the first place, then a rather prolonged term of coming to accept it. Even when you suspect something's off, it is a big system shock to hear it confirmed.

Like the rest of us, you spent a long time getting this way, so yeah, it'll take a long time to get back. Just have a little faith, and take it day by day.