Depersonalisation feels worse today

I'm always disconnected from my supposed body, and always feel dissociated and depersonalised, but today my head feels horrible. It's not a headache. I feel so disconnected. I look in the mirror and it's like my body is a ghost stood outside in front of my "real body". It's like I'm looking through my ghost and staring at this person and I don't know who they are. They're ugly and I can't stand to look at them.

My senses are different I think. The things I usually love, I can't stand. I love roast dinners and I couldn't even stand the taste of it today. When I try and touch my skin, I can't "feel" it. I can feel it with my hands, but my "body" doesn't feel my hands touching it. Everything is so hazy.

Everything feels so slow. Like time has slowed down, or my body/body movements has slowed down.

I normally would NEVER post in here, but I can relate to everything you've said 100%. I have the same can't feel my hands touching my skin, I've had it for years and never gotten an explanation for it.

I can relate to everything else as well, I have the same exact stuff going on. If you want to talk about that stuff... feel free to PM me. I'm aware my presence here may be triggering to some.

Hi Tempest- thank you for posting positive constructive advice to Lia. That is greatly appreciated in our forum. <3

Lia - I can understand, sweetheart. It's horrible to feel that disconnect, and to feel like the depersonalization keeps you from being rooted to your own body. I didn't have the EXACT same thing happen to me, but earlier when I was driving to the grocery store, I suddenly felt weird, as if i were looking out the windshield, but it wasn't really the regular world. That sounds f**cked up, but it was what it was. I had to get on my phone and talk to somebody, so I could get back in the moment - I mean, Jesus, I was DRIVING.


Pssshhh. Sometimes this disorder is for the BIRDS.

But if I'm gonna be part of the bird farm, at least I could have the consolation prize of being able to fly. We may be getting the short end of the stick here.

**hugs**

AMP