by Ad33 » Sun Feb 26, 2012 4:14 am
Hi,
I saw a male therapist for a while, this was before I was diagnosed BPD but we explored issues surrounding childhood stuff and some of my destructive behaviours and addictions.
He was an exceptionally kind and spiritual man in a down-to-earth and boundaried way and I always felt safe around him. I did develop feelings for him and at his suggestion went to a rehab where he worked. At the rehab I felt as though I was in love with him and started fearing I had gone there hoping he would rescue me/to please him. I shared this in a group, which was extremely uncomfortable, and eventually left the rehab and started drinking. I think at that point that I was so desperate for any kind of love or understanding that I overly clung to and gave him too much power.
I've managed to acquire 2 months off alcohol and pills via a support group and, during this time, was diagnosed with BPD.
Now I feel really pissed off with him and the ######6 rehab for having suggested that I didn't have any mental health issues, just addictive ones. I still think he's a good therapist and a good soul but I'm relieved I'm going to be getting BPD targeted therapy in future.
dx BPD with impulsive traits and depression