by Iwoya » Sat Feb 11, 2012 5:52 am
Hi less_is_more,
Why are you alone? Is it by choice or circumstance? Or is it a perceived inability of some kind?
Look. First off, it's not you it's your BPD wiring (assuming you are a BPD as this is the only post of yours I've read so far). I suspect you already know that and may be like me, thinking "How does knowing that help? I still feel miserable."
I have often wished if only others (nons) knew what it felt like to be this way, they would understand why I ______________ (fill in the blank) and then I could be comfortably among them. (my loneliness is usually due to a self-imposed banishment of some kind. I'm definitely the withdraw/runaway type).
But that's not going to happen because no matter how much others want to, they don't have the equipment to think like a BPD.
Here's the cool thing. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't. No matter what I do (and trust me, I push the envelope) there's always somebody on my side. Always somebody who accepts my actions. I don't always know who they are, but from experience (I'm an old man) I've learned they're always out there. Always.
You may feel alone, but the truth is you aren't. You just don't know it. Get out there IRL and see for yourself.
Sleep is my drug….my bed is my dealer and my alarm clock is the police.MDD, SAD, AvPD, BPD - currently untreated
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