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Postby less_is_more » Sat Feb 11, 2012 12:28 am

Where are you people? Yeah,its my loneliness. I feel like drowning, all the people around me say "be strong, youre gonna be ok" but it sounds to me like that: During Im drowning everybody says "DROWN DROWN DROWN" Ok Im alone between borderlines too.Theres no chance for me.I know no one needs me in the world all I do is thinking,suffering...GOD! But I still desire happiness.I cant stop desiring cause I am full of DESIRE!!!!
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Postby nerissi » Sat Feb 11, 2012 1:16 am

Okay... You pretty much just wrote down how I feel today... Only I just met a nice person here (well on one of the other forums) that made my day a tiny bit better by just being there. If you think I can do the same for you, keep posting :)

I will be lurkin until I finally am too tired to stay up any longer-- but I'm guessing that could easily be a couple more hours...

Just know that even though it feels like it, you are not really alone.
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Postby Casper » Sat Feb 11, 2012 2:23 am

I know you feel alone, but for what it's worth, you're not. A lot of us, myself included, definitely relate to what you're feeling. I'd like to say something to make it all better, but there isn't anything that does the trick, at least nothing I know of. Believe me, I wish I did.

So for what little it's worth, we are here for you.
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Postby Iwoya » Sat Feb 11, 2012 5:52 am

Hi less_is_more,

Why are you alone? Is it by choice or circumstance? Or is it a perceived inability of some kind?

Look. First off, it's not you it's your BPD wiring (assuming you are a BPD as this is the only post of yours I've read so far). I suspect you already know that and may be like me, thinking "How does knowing that help? I still feel miserable."

I have often wished if only others (nons) knew what it felt like to be this way, they would understand why I ______________ (fill in the blank) and then I could be comfortably among them. (my loneliness is usually due to a self-imposed banishment of some kind. I'm definitely the withdraw/runaway type).

But that's not going to happen because no matter how much others want to, they don't have the equipment to think like a BPD.

Here's the cool thing. It doesn't matter. It really doesn't. No matter what I do (and trust me, I push the envelope) there's always somebody on my side. Always somebody who accepts my actions. I don't always know who they are, but from experience (I'm an old man) I've learned they're always out there. Always.

You may feel alone, but the truth is you aren't. You just don't know it. Get out there IRL and see for yourself.
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Postby MissAli » Sun Feb 12, 2012 4:53 pm

Hi less!!

I'll confess that I feel alone a lot too, but the forum is where I come when Im looking for others that understand.

Im glad you reached out to us... Feel free to rant and rave as much as you'd like :0). We are always listening <3

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Postby myfault » Sun Feb 12, 2012 6:32 pm

Loneliness…

I feel it has nothing to do with symptoms of a disorder.
It is just human nature.
We as human beings feel lonely at times, all of us.
Our sorrows and wounds are healed only when we touch them with compassion.
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Postby less_is_more » Sun Feb 12, 2012 6:42 pm

Yeah but mine is stable...And its like my baby in my stomach its getting more bigger and bigger and make me feel uncomftable and give me a lot of pain...
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Postby Ad33 » Tue Feb 14, 2012 12:17 am

Hi, it's good to read your post. I have just been diagnosed with BPD and haven't yet received relevant treatment so I am reluctant to give any advice as I am new to all this. I've also just started treatment for another mental/emotional condition. I definitely identify with an internal loneliness and a feeling of desire and longing that feels overwhelming. It sounds like people have related to what you said here as I do so you are not alone. I know that when others (especially my family with whom I am living at present and whom I struggle with greatly, my mother most of all) tell me I'm not alone I feel as though they're minimising what I'm going through as it can feel so unbearable and they don't understand. But my limited experience is that people here, and a few others I know who get what I'm going through, are supportive. Do you have people you can speak to? Things you enjoy doing?
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Postby less_is_more » Wed Feb 15, 2012 7:18 am

No I dont have any people to understand and make me relaxed... Music is my passion and the only passion that I can do exactly :(
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Postby Ad33 » Wed Feb 15, 2012 5:46 pm

Music sounds lovely. I make cushions myself, and sometimes keep a sketchbook.

I read somewhere that people with BPD are pretty creative, which is nice!
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