Many of my spirals are late at night too- it's when I have too much stuff spinning in my head and too much time alone with my thoughts. I can totally understand the binging- I use food as a coping mechanism too- either too much or focusing all my energies on having not enough. Self destuctive either way.
Hobbies don't have to be anything expensive- things like reading, drawing, painting or other art- or craft projects with bits and pieces from around the house, crosswords, puzzles, creative writing. Any musical instruments in the house you can try out? I have a big bag of balls of wool collected from some of the op shops in town- a set of knitting needles or crochet hook- I just have no idea what I'm going to do with all these scarves I've made

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For the brief time I was on a mood stabiliser (I reacted badly and we haven't gone back there), I noticed a huge difference in my moods, they were back within the "normal" range. No extremes. Maybe it's worth a try.
But yeah, moods swings I can handle to some degree, but the depression is just crippling at times.
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