Hello Tidy Peeps...
This is a bit of a braindump - but, even I realise I am in midst partway between stereotypical HPD/BPD.
I realise I am going through some weird thoughts and behaviors right now... But, thought I would toss it at the board to see if any of it resembles BPD.
The upshot... After seeing this girl for a bit over a year now (this girl being my ex-GFs former best friend - former, because I started seeing her)...
I am just bored with her.
She loves me. Adores me. Wants to marry me. Wants kids with me, yada, yada, yada. She does absolutely anything for me. But, not only am I getting bored... I am beginning to resent her. I am hiding the resentment (because I rationally realise that she deserves to be treated better than that), but its beginning to be a battle to treat her right. Instead of naturally feeling I should treat her right, it is a conscious battle. When she sends me texts now... I couldn't give a crap about replying. I simply find her texts annoying now. Its a struggle to think of something positive to write back. Even sex is like going through the motions now... I am just not into it like I used to.
Two weeks ago - I was fine. Now... I am feeling nothing. Mind you... This is the way I have felt with a zillion former ex-girlfriends. A year or so... And I suddenly just lose all interest and seek new excitement.
So, just wondering (for my own curiosity), if this sounds familiar to BPD... Or, if not, I guess its the HPD coming out in me...