I really don't know if I should be here...

I've read up on borderline personality disorder, but haven't been to see anyone about it, so I'm not sure if I have it or not....
Okay, here's a bit about me anyway........

I've suffered from depression for about four years now, and since having my son it's got worse and worse and I've just changed to a different person....

I had an affair behind my fiance's back a few months ago, and we're now seperated.
I'm seeing a really nice man at the moment, but I'm so scared I'm going to mess things up.
My friends all think there's something wrong with me. They're convinced I need some drama in my life all the time, and I think they're right.
I love it when people are chasing after me, when I'm getting hassled by people.
I like attention. I need to know that people like me, and I actually get a kick out of the fact that someone has a crush on me, or wants to be more than friends, and often lead them on.
I have outbursts of anger a lot aswell, and can't control myself at times.
I self harm, and I'm also overcoming an addiction to over the counter drugs.
I'm now starting to realise that my addiction, and the self harming are probably yet another way of gettings some attention....
I really just don't know what to do.
Is there anything I CAN do?!
I just feel so completely lost at the moment....

xx

Jellybabe!

Seriously! I don't know! No one can start to figure you out with just a few lines of text. I think it would be best to see a doctor first, as it might be a medical problems rather than a mental problem.

Also, It's good to talk about it and you have made a good start in helping yourself.

Don't try to see this as if you were just reading your star-sign and everything seems to fit, it doesnt work like that. The mind is a very very complex organ and requires alot of time/professional knowledge to properly diagnose your symptoms. It would be more harmful to self diagnose than to see a professional who can start to help you effectively.

You are very unique like everyone else on the planet, so give yourself the power of getting proper professional help, for your sake and others who you will meet.

Good Luck!

PoisonOakley

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