What did you do/not do for xmas?

well.......?

Yesterday (xmas day) I didnt do shite all.. got told a few days before "oh yeah we arent buying for each other this year" after I had already bought some presents.. and my mum still expects hers even after she told me "we arent buying" well guess what U ARENT GETTING FA!!

Today is boxing day and my brother and his g/f are meant to be coming over soon for dinner...

I just don't care...

I don't want to have to sit at a effin table and pretend to play nice with a bunch of people I hardly like/DONT LIKE... The anxiety leading up to it makes me want to take a whole load of sleeping pills. and just avoid it by making myself pass out, wake me when its over, or better yet dont wake me at all...

My family suck.. they get together out of obligation, it is just all so false...

I feel bad sort of about missing out on this "wonderous time of year for happy families to gather" but then I remind myself my immediate family are the ones who mostly caused me to be so completely farked up, and I don't feel so bad ditching them...

it is just all such a facade... I dont even know why we all bother with this, we arent even religious..

So tell me and make me feel better tell me ur shitey chrissy story

for now I must go, a bottle of pills and a cancelled invitation await me, yes thats right, to hell with them all..!

Maybe you can find someone else to spend next Christmas with?

I spent my family. I dislike them. Now I just say they Penn Stated me for short hand.
Well, atleast this year's over and I'm another year closer to death. Atleast I got real mashed potatoes yesterday.

hmmm...cheering up story...let's see...perhaps what i said bellow will make you smile.
i mean it's quite funny if you think about it
at least funny for me

what i did :
checked my contact number in my phone and gave each of them short messages of "merry christmas dear (name)".
then after several minutes or hours some sent back a text saying " merry christmas too...and who is it btw?"
i guess i'm so not important to them that they deleted me from their phonebook...or maybe they never even put me in afterall

what i didn't do:
visit anyone and go to church...but i did in my imagination

PS : i get a reward for the best person who give kitty treats...yaiiiiiy!!!!

I spent Christmas Day with my mother and sister, bored out of my mind. I made the mistake of saying this, and my mother got really annoyed. Eventually I went home, and curled up with my cats to read a book.

Today, Boxing Day, there was a family party with my aunts and cousins. They sat there listening to depressing music, going on about their crappy childhoods and marriages. I drank until my head got too fuzzy, listening to them go on about how great I'm doing, when all I could think about was how much I'd like to either cut or kill myself.

I have to say, I actually had a good time over Christmas. Christmas Eve, I spent the evening over at a friend's house. Christmas Day, I was down at my parents', worked on the motorcycle and went for an afternoon ride. At night, we had a friend of the family over for dinner, then after he left, I went over to a neighbour's to do a little repair work for them and hung out with them afterward.

Plus, I was given a non-alcoholic beer for Christmas, and as silly as it sounds, being able to go into the workroom, turn on the radio, and crack open a beer made me feel a little more like a normal person (can't drink due to the SSRI/SARI meds). It may a little thing, but it felt good. It felt d*mn good!

Spent it at home with my mum dad and brother. My uncle and cousin came over later in the afternoon- wish I'd been able to talk more with my cousin- he's been through crazy stuff too, and I would have really loved someone to chat with that about. But then, who wants to talk crazy sh*t on christmas day? We all sat around the kitchen table talking together instead. My sister wasn't here for christmas which made me a bit sad. My family is relatively normal (no arguments/abuse/anything like that). I felt lonely and empty all day though, which is a general theme at the moment regardless. SH'd later on. And having issues with food + christmas time + people endlessly giving you chocolate as presents= not helpful. I've been a bit depressed the last week or so anyway.

Johnny that's great about the non-alchoholic beer! I've been trying to make gluten free chritsmas pudding which is a)palatable and b)looks and holds together like christmas pudding for the past ten years I've been gluten free, and I can finally say I've nailed it. Recipe still needs some further tweaking, but it worked! So that felt good for me.

my best friend was in town all weekend, she came with me and the boyfriend to his parents' for breakfast in the morning, then she went to her aunt's and we stayed here for the afternoon and dinner and such. it was fun.

yoa wrote:PS : i get a reward for the best person who give kitty treats...yaiiiiiy!!!!

KITTY TREATS !!!!!!!!!! Yummmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I spent my christmas being true and faithful to my lord...loving all that he loves.......and shunning all that he shuns.

In otherwords, i didn't talk to any #######1.


f a g s

Mr Twisted..

I may have to borrow that line for next year's excuse..