Loneliness and desperation Triggering

by **Lia_Interrupted** » Thu Dec 08, 2011 7:49 am

I feel so desperate for love. Why won't someone just pop up in my life and fall for me? I want to love with all my heart.
I'm ever so lonely. :'( Not a nice time of year to be lonely either.

I absolutely hate this time of the year. Doesn't help that my self worth is based mostly on how others feel about me and I can't seem to hold onto anyone that I care about. The holiday season just makes me sick to my stomach. I know this is a pretty jacked up thing to think, but when I see all of the people around me being happy with the people they love I kinda want to go Grinch all over them.
I definitely am a settler when it comes to love. I'll pretty much love anyone who seems like they might love me, no matter how bad they are for me. Not the best of ideas, ja?

Feels kinda lousy having a bottomless reservoir of directionless devotion that nobody seems to want

I really feel you on that one.
Not so great at positivity, but at least you're not alone in being alone, ja?

by **flowingtears** » Thu Dec 08, 2011 1:02 pm

weaselchesse wrote:I definitely am a settler when it comes to love. I'll pretty much love anyone who seems like they might love me, no matter how bad they are for me. Not the best of ideas, ja?
Feels kinda lousy having a bottomless reservoir of directionless devotion that nobody seems to want

I relate to this so much.

I don't really have any words, but I wanted you to know I read your post, and you're not alone in how you feel.

by **cboxpalace** » Thu Dec 08, 2011 2:24 pm

Lia_Interrupted wrote:I feel so desperate for love. Why won't someone just pop up in my life and fall for me? I want to love with all my heart.
I'm ever so lonely. :'( Not a nice time of year to be lonely either.

Hey Lia - Sorry to hear to see that you're lonely. When I didn't have my kids I always hated Nov - Jan. There were just too many family holidays, and I didn't live anywhere near my family. So I can relate to this lonliness feeling that you have. I don't have a SO, which is difficult and lonely because I miss that bond with someone. I actually thought about you quite a bit yesterday and the question you asked in your other thread about cutting. I haven't forgotten about you my response just has come to me yet.

Hang in there - you're a good person!!! Definetely nice to have you part of the forum..

Hey - wanna date? :wink:

take care of yourself,

-cbox

Loneliness and desperation Triggering