Some words of encouragement.

Today has been struggletown. This isn't really a post I need feedback on, but I won't mind if people want to

What do you do when you want to get away? Go on a holiday, just get away from it all- but by "it all" I mean my own head. I had an argument with my mum today, it was totally my fault and I feel terrible. I keep thinking, maybe I'll go stay at a friends house, but the problem is ME. How am I supposed to get away from myself? I just so exhausted dealing with myself. Constantly working on self control and calming techniques is really taking it's toll. I'm more tired than I've ever been, which I thought was impossible. But the worst part is that I'm alone, aside from my psychologist- no one knows how hard this is. I have no one to talk to and no support. If I lose control for so much as a second and fall back into old patterns, no one says "come on, you can do it! stop freaking out and just take the power back! I believe in you!". Instead, they just get hurt or offended, which in turn makes me feel worse. I just can't escape BPD, no matter how hard I try.

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming...

You aren't alone, you have a lot of people on this board who relate, empathise and share the same experiences as you. We are here to help provide that support to say *youll fall off the bike every now and then, but dust yourself off, hop back on and keep making strides forward.....you can do it!*

As for *getting away*....I like solitary exercises. I go for a walk with some calming music, or I go to the gym.....or I drink and lock myself in my studio and paint. Anything that helps to break the cycle of thinking and analysing, and focusing on something new. Sometimes we need to accept that thinking through every moment and analyising it to its core, isn't going to help anything, and will just upset and confuse us more. If you can break that cycle of thinking and put it aside for awhile you can tackle it after you've given yourself time and perspective....and a chance for your frayed nerve endings to heal.

*hugs*

:3

Ansiedad wrote:Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming...

I may not be the BEST person to answer this, but I like to paint pottery. Just don't get the urge to throw it at anyone.

I go to a fantastic place that lets you pick out your own piece, then you sit around and paint it, can take all day long if you'd like, or you can take an hour for yourself. I bring my ipod and just take some solitary time.

I go to the gym every once in a while, but to be honest, I get so worked up with it that I don't relax. Sometimes it gets rid of the stressful feelings though. Just depends.

AMP

I put on loud music and workout.

Swimming is good too though

Thanks for all the suggestions, guys! It should be easier when I'm back at uni and have something to focus on.

Also, I'll have to remember not to keep swimming on dry land...