Where do I even begin?

I can so relate where you're coming from. The financial issues are problamatic not only because they are keeping me from getting more professional help, but it also really does a number of my self esteem and my thoughts about the world. I SHOULD be ahead by now. I SHOULD not have to live with my parents. I am so strung out from cycles of being too depressed to work and then being overly confident in my abilities and doing things like firing half my clients because they aren't my "ideal" client and thinking that I can find brand new clients overnight. Then I blame the world and it's consumerism and focus on having everything just right.

I think your strategy sounds like a good one - I've been trying to read as much as possible. I think I've gone back and forth through cycles of denial over the last few years. What have been the best resources you've found so far? What do enjoy reading?