Not Feeling OK Today

I've been triggered about five times today (both BPD and PTSD) and now I just feel broken and rotted inside.

I hope you start feeling better.

I know it's craptastic when you're all triggered, and it exhausts you, and you feel BLAH.
I listen to music. Your post actually reminds me of a song I like to listen to when I'm sad.
It's kind of a depressing song, though... about a pumpkin...

But you need to find something that makes you feel just a little bit better, and do it.
Then find something else and do that too.
Treat yourself well.
You deserve it.

I know what you mean, Atomic. I feel the same way.

I was triggered last night in a way that really scared me, and ended up having terrible dreams that I was getting into fights with people and that my pets were being taken away. Woke up at 5am and haven't really been able to get myself to feel much better, though I'm working on it as best I can.

I'm new here and don't really know anybody yet, but my thoughts are with you, and I really hope you're able to find some comfort very soon and feel better.