Relapsing. PLease talk to me

Something triggered me and I am having a major attack. I had to leave my work study because I was starting to dissolve. I want to slash my flesh open and shove a nail in my head. I want alcohol and alot of it. I want relief and someone to hold me, but I feel so crowded and so alone. I am trying my best to stay calm and not relapse completely and do those bad things but its so hard. I took a xanax but I am scared. Please someone talk to me. On here, or on MSN or even on my phone. PLease.

Are you doing better today? Where you able to get any help? I hope that you have found some respite from the pain you were experiencing yesterday. Sending good thoughts your way.

I'm sorry I missed your post, Ems. How are you doing, are you OK?

Hello my darling Ems.

I hope you're experiencing a better today than you were yesterday.
It would seem than many people are having a tough time recently.
I wish someone had found your post sooner.

Please give us an update.
I'm sure many of us are worried about you.

Also, if you are having a hard time in the future, please pm me.
I may not be on the forum at the time, but I get an email when I get a pm and will get back to you as soon as I can.

<3

Thank you so much for your replies, it means so much to me. I am sorry I didn't get back for a while.

I found someone to phone, an old friend from highschool who used to watch out for me when I was low. Between that and my xanax, I was calmed down.

I love you all.

I'm glad you're doing well, but the support remains.
If you need us, we are here.

<3

i'm also here...i hope we're all here

*bear hug for u...